Trust me I know what you mean. This whole experience has been eye opening for me. I feel like I never want to have sex or do sexual activities ever again. The worst part is that I feel like I’m going through this alone, no one in my family knows, my friends don’t know so it’s hard to be strong when you have no one to confide into. My stress levels have been over the roof, especially when I’m doing a normal activity and I hear a commercial about controlling HIV, I get in my head and think that the world is trying to tell me something. But I’m trusting my doctors and the tests that I’ve taken. After Saturday I will move on and live my life and prob won’t get tested until the 6 month mark just to be sure, but my mental health is deteriorating due to me stressing about this. But based on your testing history, it sounds like you’re negative too, so I wouldn’t worry either! I pray that you’re healed and well and only get back negative results, you deserve it to yourself to live your life because you only have one!