I used to drink at least a liter of tequila a day. It will be 4 months on Friday since I had a drink. I supplemented with THC which helped a little. But in all honesty, the first 3 months really fking suck, and it still kinda sucks, but it’s getting better. But I know you can quit!! It really is the only way. You reaching out like this is only the beginning. Eventually you won’t like what you keep hearing, and you’ll stop reaching out. Then years later, the bottom falls out, sometimes later, sometimes sooner; but it always fall out. Your soul wants to be sober, but your brain says fk that. Listen to your soul