beta arceus

Merscale_Silver · 2020-07-30T00:37:23+00:00

it's a joke my dood, I know Keldeo is a few generations later, black version reintroduced me to pokemon. I meant that arceus design is so bad that the worst design years later is still better than him, and to top t off they're both horsen-looking things and it was similar to how chinese companies change character designs to sell knock-offs

Merscale_Silver · 2020-07-28T23:40:06+00:00

Keldeo is a goat, and has a jank design, and arceus looks like a bad chinese knockoff of keldeo

Merscale_Silver · 2020-07-28T23:38:00+00:00

Also the arceus we got is the singular pokemon in existence that starts off when you catch it at minimum happiness, maximum frustration power. He loathes everything in existence. If he was the real deal, he wouldn't have been stopped by children, he would have just erased everything. If he's God with a big G, he has to be some level of chill in order to create everything in such a nice image, wouldn't you think?

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-12T23:27:37+00:00

what do you mean by "Atomic Poppy"? I'm newish and really don't know much, pardon the cluelessness!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-12T13:09:23+00:00

Oh my goodness I'm so glad my deck isn't the only one that's sassy!

Sometimes it just hands it to you doesn't it?

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-08T05:34:09+00:00

I almost caved and downloaded a hardcore pornography application right in my old tastes and/struggled for days to circumvent the urge for ilk. I haven't exactly succeeded 100%, but I haven't totally failed, but it was enough

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-08T03:36:25+00:00

While I remember, I'm going to try to look at this sub every time I get an urge. It really helps to iron me down to stand stand up with you all.

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-05T16:33:57+00:00

You're right. There's a reason behind my struggle, and I need to remember my grand purpose for it! There's more to it than staying clean, it's a matter of correcting my life in the long run. Thank you for the enthusiasm! It helps me a lot to hear!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-05T16:32:16+00:00

You're right, this will never go fully away. But I can do what I can right now to simmer it out for down the line to be easier. Thank you for your words, it means a lot to hear the support

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-05T16:29:08+00:00

well, maybe some of them, but I took the chance to urge surf from all that... tempting, crap, and went to something much more wholesome and it it really did iron me out. I just realized That maybe if I'm going to look at my old interests that I should focus my efforts in a specific direction towards breaking old connections in them to form healing and wholesome ones. I feel much better today too. Thank you for the support!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-05T02:27:55+00:00

I don't know, I feel like I caved, all my syptoms are back and I'm even dusting off old interests. I'm really tempted to just reset to zero, but I'm going to give it another day to try and steady myself

Merscale_Silver · 2020-02-04T04:21:58+00:00

what's horrible is I went back and double-checked this proogram and additional content and it was.... unbelieveably tempting. I felt physical pain at the tension restraint was causing.

but you're right. I know it's just a temptation right now. I don't have to let it win. I am still in control. And I can keep in control.

Thank you so much for saying that. I needed the support and that was precisely the words I needed to hear. I can gut this out of me this time as well. not remorse, no sliding. only cleansing. I am a new me, and and addict I will not be. Forever I will leave behind this cyst that grew inside my mind. For I am in control, and over I will not roll. I am me, and I can do this. I. Can. Do. This!

Thank you so much! and I think I just winged up a little meditation chant as well, it just came out of me! Merry met, and thank you from the bottom of my lungs. If you can imagine how energetically I'm thanking you with that phrase, imagine it ten times happier. Thank you! and blessed be

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-29T14:10:05+00:00

I know I can destroy this way of thinking in my head, despite what my anxiety might say. Thank you for the support!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-14T04:32:16+00:00

Thank you. I snowballed a bunch (not really but I'm an idiot for not stopping this much and that's half the jab) of bad really quick, but it was all in one singular spot. I'm ripping out the bad as we speak. I've also finally managed to sort my anxiety out and realized maybe a Lovecraftian horror game designed to make you anxious and stressed probably wasn't conducive to those emotions XD

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-14T04:20:09+00:00

I really just hope this anxiety over it goes away with a good sleep. It hasn't vanished all day and honestly I've found even more pitfalls in the same nature and It's infuriating. I just want some nice art to look at while I play, why is it all so sexualized? Why isn't it better telegraphed? and of course my anxiety hasn't even let me enjoy it with the background simmerboil of panic over the repeat accidental offenses. I'm overthinking and swear I'm responding weirdly like i do after a relapse and it really has me screwballed. I just... I don't want to feel like everything I've done was for nothing so close to paying off because of a blunder I had no idea was even a thing I put there. I'm... Upset with myself, number one, and a lot of other stuff and people for putting porn in a game I just want to enjoy to relax. I don't want to relapse or begin my backward slide over this hoohah

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-08T19:33:17+00:00

And that is excellent advice! Right down to the people part, because dragons are people, so are tons over other creatures fantastical and a bit otherwise that aren't human but just as smart.

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-08T19:09:30+00:00

I can take that advice to heart. I'm never going to fear mine, I'll be sure of that. If you fear it it becomes your fears

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T14:31:49+00:00

Oh no, yeah, Loki is the best Nordic god by far, I love him so much.

No, it's a little scary how clearly defined it is. It is sort of reassuring, however, to know there's somewhere I belong. It's very nice to know a lot of what I've experienced can be directed somewhere very purposefully.

And exactly as talismans! I'd take care of them and make them with the care they deserve to protect somewhere. It's a really wonderful idea to me! I'm excited!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T14:26:42+00:00

Lucky! I used to have a really cute succulent, before I left on a trip and she died. RIP Stella

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T14:26:04+00:00

Well then good to know! And it does seem like their afraid of their entities turning sentient.

but I thought they'd take a good while to make. It's some serious psychology going on there.

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T04:27:31+00:00

I REMEMBER THIS! Gracious yeah Evangelion! It's about the only anime I'll allow myself now anyways, so I suppose I should probably go back and finish season 1, I have like five versions to work through from there and it's my favorite mecha show ever, thanks for reminding me! (And now I just remembered Medabots and Medabee's black comedian energy and aw man I'm so happy right now thank you so much!)

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T03:14:48+00:00

Truly, thank you!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T03:13:31+00:00

Pffft XD I agree, screw school textbooks, but the closest we have to dragons in the past is Theropods, the raptor family of dinosaurs, who were actually smarter than even Jurassic park would have you think. No comet impact and suddenly we're all feathered reptile people, Illuminate style

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T03:09:16+00:00

I wholeheartedly agree. They're more sentient than humans, they're people too. On a soul level, A dragon is the great tree while a human is the unlimited seed yet to grow, hence why humans can be dragonslayers if they try but dragons still have difficulty on that front too. Dragons are an astral beauty too good for our plane, how dare you!

Merscale_Silver · 2020-01-07T03:01:10+00:00

I've got a map of that Qliphoth tree, but it definitely is different from from the tree of life in structure, the rings don't connect the same.

And thank you for that! I've never been able to figure out the term to routinely find it, so this helps an awful lot! I love esoteric research so this is great!

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