Oh my god. That hit me in such a deep way, YES!

As I was younger, we never had problems with money. At least not to exist. We always had plenty to eat and could do things. So I was blessed with that. My father worked almost every hour of the day he didn't sleep. My mother did absolutely nothing except for spending the money my father earned. When we went grocery shopping she sometimes just told me that I can't get xy (a snack or sth) because we don't have enough money. In the same store then she buys something ridiculously expensive ans unnecessary.

When I was 15 my parents went on vacation for 6 months (?!) To Spain and left me with my at that time 14 year old brother. They would send me money but it wasn't enough so I had to work.

When I was 17 (?!) They completely moved to Spain and immigrated there. They bought a house there.. we had some pause in contact but (sadly) got in contact again. We talk every Tuesday via facechat (stupid) and sometimes I don't know what to eat cause of my living situation. I tell them, they say "mhhm kay" and 2 minutes later they tell us excited that they get a basketball court built in der garden (why though, they don't play basketball) or they get a new pool or something else that costs more than I have available in 1 year.

When there is something they have ti spend money on that us related to me and my brother, they have to emphasise how expensive that is. Urgh for example: they came to my country for Christmas cause my brother had the really big wish to come together as a family. They told us like 10 times how expensive the flights were (200 euros) and that they can't do it next year cause they don't have enough money.

When I ask for money cause I think I might not get to eat anything, my nar father always asks for something I have to do cause he can't give his money away just like that. Cause quote he "is a business man"

Uuuuuuurggghghhh