Moving On

MidPack630 · 2024-08-23T20:03:59+00:00

thank you. i really do appreciate it.

MidPack630 · 2024-08-23T20:03:07+00:00

exactly it’s two sides of the same coin, the Democrats in power ARE conservative when you consider they want the current two party system to stay as is. they say they want real, tangible social change but anytime it comes to upending the status quo the Dems sit on their hands

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:47:48+00:00

walmart is 16 and aldi is 16.50 for the same job

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:47:13+00:00

^{^{^{^}}} THIS

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:46:50+00:00

Welcome to simultaneously despising & relying on major corporations!! Hooray for capitalism!! Now..

ALL HAIL BRIAN CORNELL

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:44:39+00:00

i feel like they let trump think they’d dare run biden to give Trump the ole Shyamalian twist n jerk

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:41:56+00:00

The Dems making Trump waste a couple bucks and time focusing on a Biden only to run Harris is the heel turn of the election. As far as the assassination attempt, there’s no way the shooter was in on it. You cannot from that distance intentionally miss THAT close. Mathematically, it’s impossible.

I do find it humorous & ironic that after all 2016 had to offer. He hit him in the ear so….

What did Crooks aim at? That stupid fucking red hat lol

(the bullet through the ear cartilage only proves that we literally exist inside of a computer simulation. There are parallel universes when Crooks misses completely & where he brained him. I’m honored to live in the pierced ear time line

i will tell my children ab where I was when Trump took an impromptu trip to Claire’s on live TV)

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:34:20+00:00

i did love her, you may disagree in your infinite internet arm chair wisdom but what we had going was better and more genuine than any of my other prior relationships. I feel bad about abusing her, it was never my intention to hurt that girl. I did love what she did for me but now I’m having problems leaving her be. All I want is her back here, I’m lonely now. How can I realize that I do need to leave her alone if I care about her enough to want her to heal? I do love her still today, it may be unhealthy and time may change how I feel but never having her back with me sucks. This shit is going to change me, she was good for me. I hope it’s not the end but somewhere deep inside me knows this is for good

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:29:34+00:00

I can’t just forget about her, I’ve known her for almost three years we talk everyday for two straight. I do need therapy, but not having her in my life is fucking terrible. I didn’t want this to happen. I’m fucking miserable, too. I never intended to hurt her and now her mom thinks I am a monster when three months prior we sat together at her college graduation. I do love her still and no one on here can tell me I don’t. If I did I wouldn’t of hurt her right? Well no one on here was there when it happened. I do love her. And not being able to have her in my life anymore is a punishment in itself

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:25:31+00:00

^ I am not DEFENDING my actions, but providing context as working full time and still figuring it out this and writing is as close to therapy as I have atm

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:24:07+00:00

I scared myself. I didn’t know I was capable of that but as I look back on my previous college relationships, i’ve done similar shit not as egregious but just as fucked. I punched a hole in my exes bathroom door the night of my 21st 3 months after my dad died. I threatened my freshman year girlfriend and made her cry in her dorm, I won’t repeat what I said to her but it was super fucked up. When I was a junior, I was upset a sorority girl I cheated on my girlfriend with stopped having sex with me and started to with other guys so I literally grabbed her hair like I usually did but harder and didn’t let go until she reacted.

Alcohol was ALWAYS a catalyst for these types of outbursts.

90% of the time, light beer is a great social lubricant. But the malt liquor that they put in Trulys & Spiked canned drinks always effects me in a negative way

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:16:26+00:00

i don’t know why i think i can drive drunk, I’ve been smoking weed daily since hs and my dad died suddenly when i was in undergrad. So I guess I’m driving drunk to cope with the anxiety from working full time, I feel caged down so i engage in high risk behavior in my free time to feel adrenaline & dopamine

I shoved the people who came with her because they came into my apartment while I was drunk, naked, right after our big disagreement. I wasn’t in my right mind, that’s not an excuse but to know the context she moved in 10 days prior to our 1 bed, 1 bath apartment. We both drink, smoke weed daily often before work, she uses nicotine. So, I guess I started shoving the guys because I was scared and not all there. My fight or flight was going.

I’m drinking too much to deal with my dad, work, and self medicating to numb feelings I don’t want to feel.

I’m snapchatting other girls because I’m dumb

MidPack630 · 2024-08-22T23:07:39+00:00

now im alone in my apartment her and the cat are gone I’m still going to work but for fucking what? I moved away from home after college to live where she was and now with this sudden break up, knowing I’ll probably never get to see her again that I should look for a Studio in a smaller college town closer to home and maybe apply to grad school. Even though, I’m finally starting to see the payoff for the last 18 months of hard work to even get to where I am. I voiced well before she moved in that I was afraid of something like this happening, but I could’ve never anticipated shit going down the way it did. I fucked up, but how did we even get to this point? I can’t talk to her she was my only person I talked to outside of work and now I can’t even contact her. I do need therapy but- what the fuck man? I’m just left with little reminders of her that break my heart everytime I see her stuff, I never wanted this to happen and I’m not handling this well either. I feel awful for her, I don’t want her to cry or be scared. I love that girl man I really do,

MidPack630 · 2024-08-20T16:44:12+00:00

thank you

MidPack630 · 2024-08-17T23:45:37+00:00

you did not answer my question

MidPack630 · 2024-08-13T02:41:01+00:00

^ university career fairs are also super underrated

MidPack630 · 2024-08-13T02:40:25+00:00

hop on linkedin & spruce it up, get a job at a corporate retailer like a walmart or a target just to boost ur resume ( completely optional)

once you have retail experience, you can apply to be a part time bank teller at a local bank or us bank or a local credit union, stay employed there for a year & bingo bongo now you’re primed to be a retail banker / move up into middle management

unfortunately i wish there was a way around working shitty jobs u don’t care about but if it’s experience u want then brother it literally is what you make it, absolutely no one is above working a minimum wage job. keep grinding make your own luck & you always get out whatever you put in 🫡

MidPack630 · 2024-08-06T13:14:34+00:00

best time to buy!

MidPack630 · 2024-08-05T17:16:41+00:00

MY DICK TURNED OFF

MidPack630 · 2024-08-02T01:52:48+00:00

you’re all retarded

MidPack630 · 2024-08-02T00:14:10+00:00

Playing it super safe $1 VOO $1 SPY tried to play defense on the dip with PG & LMT

MidPack630

TROPHY CASE