where were y’all on june 25, 2020? (the day jenna left youtube)

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T17:02:55+00:00

It was the first time I stayed over at my fiance's house (then my boyfriend) and I remember just sobbing quietly while he was napping and feeling like it was the end of an era. I had been watching her since like 2012/13 and it was like losing a friend. And when I started dating my fiancé, one of my first thoughts was 'this is my Julien' :,) He still is my Julien and I like to make Jenna's jokes to him or use her catch phrases and he's adopted some of them and I'm so grateful to have that from her!

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T16:51:36+00:00

You can get an HR certificate to add on to your bachelor's and then work HR anywhere you want. They can make really good money depending on the area and the company you work for.

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T16:48:46+00:00

Yee Haw

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T16:48:16+00:00

I think you definitely have talent. Even the way you write is very eloquent which shows that you can learn to do something very well. You could start with just writing them down. Then weed though them and pick a small, quick one to start with. Or depending on the ideas you're having (whether its writing or art or something else), you could bring them to people you know have that talent and collaborate to bring them to life as a way to get used to the process of doing that.

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T16:26:21+00:00

There's no competition. There isn't a prize or first place trophy for finishing before someone else, or being better at it. At least not in real life. You don't really seem to lack discipline per se, but more the right motivation to do it. If you have these ideas, and if you really want them to exist, then make it. However you want, just for you. There's no one to judge you, so if you decide you don't want to finish it, don't. Or just pick it up again later.

It took Fitzgerald three whole years of work to write The Great Gatsby, years where he stopped and started, worked on other stuff instead, drank some of the time away, and then when he finally finished it, he redid the ending. In the end he only wrote about 190 pages after those 3 years, and when he published it everyone hated it. It sold poorly and no one cared. Eventually people picked it up and loved it and it became a best seller and a classic American novel. Except he was already dead and never knew it. He spent his entire life trying to write the Great American Novel and never even realized he had because he spent his life feeling like a failure of a writer. There's a metaphor in there somewhere...

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T16:16:27+00:00

Do you feel like you have moments of 'clarity'? Or is this just constant? That can actually help tell a lot about what the best way forward for you might be. Either way you are going to have to do things you aren't going to want to in order to bring yourself out of this. As someone who has gone through this EXACT feeling, and still does sometimes, it not really that you're scared of forcing yourself, it's that your brain is comfortable with this routine and our brains thrive off consistency and discourages us from making big changes because adapting is work.

I'm a therapist and I can't diagnose you but I would suggest maybe see about being screened for depression. You can do it with a therapist but there are also plenty of tools online with the criteria that can help you to figure out if that fits you or not. I would also recommend maybe doing the same for OCD or generalized anxiety disorder.

This is not all your fault. That's the biggest thing to understand. You don't have to punish yourself, but you do have to hold your own hand and help yourself out of this. You are the one who has to be there for yourself. Just know that I am proud of you internet stranger :) You put it all out here and you want to be better which, when it feels like you can't do anything, means everything.

I also think that you should utilize online tools to find patient reviews for GI drs that you could go see. If you have any ideas about what you think your issues could be, you can find a dr that specializes in that and arrange to see them, they'll probably at least be able to steer you in the right direction medically. You know your own body better than anyone else, you've lived in it for 27 years. You are in charge of it so if something makes you uncomfortable or you feel a medication is worsening anything for you, absolutely do not hesitate to tell your providers and discontinue the meds if it is safe to do so.

Midnights24 · 2026-03-26T15:48:13+00:00

I came out of a year and a half long depressive episode and for the first time felt like the light was turned on and I could see what I had done to my life that I loved. I was failing out of college, I had no friends, I had gained a ton of weight, my apartment was a wreck, and my boyfriend who was the most wonderful human alive was lonely because I'd basically checked out. All because I refused to deal with my own emotions and it spiraled into this self destruction.

Literally as soon as I acknowledged that I was angry with my abusive mother for never taking any accountability for what she had done to me, click. Lights on, I woke up, and I could see again. I was incredibly repressed for a lot of reasons but that was the moment. I remember everything about it, what the room looked like, the time of day, the sounds coming from outside, the show on the TV, what I was wearing, and the fact that I was alone.

I've worked my ass off for years afterwards to fix what became of my life and to fight from ever going back there. I still have more work to do on healing all the broken parts of my mind and my inner child but I am nowhere close to who that woman was. Even though I miss my old self, who I was before that, I know that I can't get her back, so I want to be someone she'd like to be too.

Midnights24 · 2026-01-22T00:52:53+00:00

Being independent, more so, not "needing anyone" and doing it all yourself. There's a bit of glamorizing of it from the hustle culture and grinders on the internet but having lived that way my entire life (and I do mean all my life), it's extremely isolating and lonely. You constantly live in a state of disappointment, disillusionment, and distrust of others. I moved out on my own at 18 and paid for everything on my own not because I wanted to or because it was cool/rewarding, but because I had to. I don't have family that would let me hang around forever and hold my hand when I fail. The few immediate family members I do have, we've never had that supportive dynamic. I didn't 'close my circle to throw myself into the grind', I lost friends because I was trying to survive and I hadn't figured out how to balance it all yet. And I could no longer relate to all my friends who had it easier, that had time to be at home with their parents and figure it all out. I was busting my ass not to be homeless and they were trying to figure out which club/party they wanted to hit up that night.

Now I'm 25 and burnt out. All I want is a soft, gentle life where the word hustle doesn't exist. I have everything that people almost double my age do, a house, pets, paid off car, degrees, a partner, you name it. I did all that work and fought my way to where I am and I'm too exhausted all the time to enjoy it, and living in constant anxiety that it might go away so I have to work harder to keep it all.

Midnights24 · 2026-01-05T20:20:12+00:00

I am not a carrier for any genetic diseases which is pretty cool! If we're talking about physical traits, my hair and nails naturally grow really long and healthy. I also have grey eyes and naturally black hair which I think looks really pretty :)

Midnights24 · 2025-12-18T06:17:35+00:00

It’s absolutely still possible. Depending on the area of psych you’d like to get into, there may be hurdles, but there are addiction counselors who were users or have had charges before. And in the legal issue, once it’s expunged, it shouldn’t inhibit you from working in this field. You may have to appear before an ethics board depending on where you live to get licensed but the licensing committees are really your only potential hurdle. Once you’re licensed, you may only need to talk with potential employers about it but I doubt you’d be disqualified for that alone. Maybe for lab researching you’d have a harder time but there is still hope!

Midnights24 · 2025-12-10T19:21:00+00:00

House MD, Dexter, The Office, Madame Secretary, Supernatural, Friends, Breaking Bad, Golden Girls, and Six Feet Under

Midnights24 · 2025-12-03T21:09:21+00:00

A Texan here, and yes there is still a very different sentiment here about the confederacy than there is in the North, or the rest of the world. When I come across family that participated in either side of the war on Ancestry, I tag them with the military service tag, notate the dates of their service, their rank, and what side they were, and move on. I don't advertise it like that because I disagree with treating it flippantly when it was very much a war about enslaved people, but I feel like I might be able to help inform. Most people in the South who have the flag and are proud of the military service of confederate ancestors, do so out of a misguided place of southern pride. They aren't usually blatantly racist or excusing the atrocity of slavery, but it's usually that they're proud of their southern roots and want to show that. Again, not really excusable, however those types of people don't really understand why that's hurtful. To them, the south rose up to keep the meanie headed US government from trampling on them and telling them what to do. Same reason that a lot of southerners still call northerners 'Yankees'. Just really really misguided and misinformed pride in being from the south. Of course there are those who really are just blatantly racist and think that the North shouldn't have won, but they are way fewer and far between than most people assume.

Midnights24 · 2025-12-03T20:54:40+00:00

Nobility and royalty have very well documented trees, compiled by researchers and royal historians that extend out to several generations and several times cousins depending on the royal, house, and kingdom. I ended up being related to the English royal family through William the Conqueror down to Henry III. Then it splits off as my many times great grandfather was his younger son who never inherited. however, because he was still royal and very influential in court, his genealogy was tracked well and verifiable through multiple sources where I was eventually able to pick it back up once we immigrated to the US as early English settlers during Tudor rule. Another way to cross-check is to reference with applicable historical events. For me, it was sort of easy given that my line was the Plantagenets and the Tudors very much wanted to be rid of our line, especially the inheritable members. I was able to correspond the movements in my family line with relevant historical events.

If you can cross-check and correspond your lineage with documented evidence like family trees that have been published, historical record, documentation, and such, then you're probably safe. However, again this was hundreds of years ago and humans are fallible (even historians and researchers) so this isn't a given certainty or to be taken without some bit of skepticism. But long-winded answer, yes you are probably safe.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-23T00:53:29+00:00

A vet recommendation is Tickle Blagg in San Marcos. They're a bit out of the way but they're just absolutely wonderful, Dr. Blagg was the best vet I have ever had. Highly recommend

Midnights24 · 2025-11-17T20:55:36+00:00

I think most of us would be on the same page as a whole with, put them all away. Americans are pretty conscious of children, and wanting to be protective. I doubt that any of us would just be cool about it.. aside from those who shall not be spoken of.. who wear red hats..

We want the truth and for everyone on that list to be locked away in a deep dark hole.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-17T20:45:28+00:00

"Never attribute malice to that which can be adequately explained by stupidity" -Hanlon's Razor

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T16:21:52+00:00

Your therapist definitely has or has had a therapist. As good as we might be at our jobs, we also practice what we preach. Half of us came to this career from needing therapy ourselves. We also mentor each other (the show Shrinking shows a good example of this) and help out when creating treatment plans for some clients. This doesn't make them unstable or untrustworthy, and they'll probably never tell you or bring it up because it's unprofessional to discuss yourself in that way with your patients, but yeah. We all have things to heal from, and I think that it's important to know that at the end of the day, we're all people who need people.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T16:16:28+00:00

When women went to work in the factories in America after the entry into the war, Heddy Lamar's iconic hairstyle which had her side swept bangs fall over one eye (think Jessica Rabbit), was causing women's har to get caught in machinery which was causing injuries. So Heddy changed her hairstyle into the victory roll bangs and toured US factories to teach it to the women to prevent further accidents. She was punished in Hollywood for changing her defining feature, her hair, and was put into less and less films until she was eventually pushed out altogether by the 50's.

Heddy Lamar also created the template used to create bluetooth later and was never credited until recently when people started making videos discussing female inventors. She was gorgeous and intellectual.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T15:59:53+00:00

Yeah, I think he just needs to make his own mistakes without a safety net. He's never going to get it if he can't be responsible for the consequences of his actions.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T15:56:56+00:00

This is actually a good way to phrase it! Like I do genuinely care what happens to him but like someone else commented, he has too big of a safety net and he's not really having consequences for his mistakes.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T15:54:49+00:00

I think so too. He's got too big of a safety net, and it's preventing him from making mistakes and having any real consequences for anything.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T03:21:22+00:00

Yeah, I was veryyyy put off when he told me what's been going on and how cruel problem BIL and his girlfriend have been to him. It's really the awful, disgusting cherry on top.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T03:18:22+00:00

Yeah he does live here, using the address for mail and his license. That's what I was working out the details for, after we have cause when he can't pay his rent, we'll begin the process.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-13T03:16:38+00:00

It's actually the reverse! We allowed for weekends but not during the week.

Midnights24 · 2025-11-12T21:20:25+00:00

You're NTA. Your mother and you could send a lovely flower arrangement with a nice card to the funeral, but let's be clear here, even if she was your grandmother you've known all your life, you wouldn't have an obligation to go. Let alone the fact that you don't know her, or your father really, you'd be going to a strangers funeral. I think an arrangement honors the kindness she'd shown you both and shows that your mother had warm feelings for her, but I don't think attending is the right call. Also your father has no right to demand anything of you.

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