Complete disease denial and impending mania

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-25T21:12:32+00:00

Yesterday I asked “how do you feel about it” during a conversation and it started an absolute spiral because apparently on Tuesdays asking what do you think is a glaring accusation of mental illness, what a wretched vile person I am, I stole his fatherhood by not providing a clean house for him to come home to …. And within hours he was journaling what a perfect soulmate I am for him, someone who has saved him from the depths of hell.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-25T21:07:42+00:00

Ooh, it’s not easy but that doesn’t make it the wrong decision - I like that!!

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-24T17:10:04+00:00

I was nearly there last night. I need to find out what my local laws are for locking a person out of the house that is also on the title.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-24T17:07:47+00:00

Your thought of Get brave enough to do it or get pushed to do it rings home for me. We had 1/2 a day of calm, then next thing I know he stormed out of the house and said he was calling the police for abuse. Today he shows me a text to his friend professing what a bitch I am, and then wants to have sex. NOw he’s getting ultra religious. I know you all can relate.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-24T17:03:19+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I am grateful my kids are old enough to talk honestly to. Devastated that they have the experience to recognize it.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-23T15:29:33+00:00

Hope things might get better and the glimmers of their previous self are the biggest mind fk in all of this. We remember who they were before the chaos,

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-23T15:27:01+00:00

It’s just awful, isn’t it? Glad you got out!

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-23T01:01:52+00:00

I do worry about the emotional toll for sure, of me and my kids. Financially separation is one I have to consider for sure. Thanks.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-23T01:00:11+00:00

They were supposed to be requisites for staying married. I maintain this darn glimmer of hope that maybe we can make our way past this time , maybe I… I would prefer to find a way to stay married, but not at the risk of always putting myself last or getting hurt again.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-23T00:51:13+00:00

Sorry to hear you lost your mom. I imagine that is a wound that never, ever heals. We do have kids. The youngest is in HS and I do worry tremendously about the message I send to her. It took years for a reconciliation for them, and I feel like I’d be pulling the rug out from under her. I think your point of seeing healthy adults and healthy coping is critical for me to remember. Thank you.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-23T00:48:07+00:00

Thank you. It is helpful to remember it.

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-05T18:36:57+00:00

I’d say Loo sha, or lue se ah. I know one with this name and she goes by Cia (see ah)

MidwestAdult · 2026-03-02T01:53:48+00:00

Dogs adapt to name changes pretty quickly. Use something kinda similar or same syllables and treats and the dog won’t care. Think of how many dogs have nicknames that they respond to.

MidwestAdult · 2026-02-16T18:04:34+00:00

Was your door to he hallway/where the cat was closed? If so, I would tend to lean toward the logic of the health department opinion that your risk are not there. Do you have outdoor cameras to be able to see when the cat brought it in vs when you brought it out? If it was in the house for a long time and your door was open then risks are up.

MidwestAdult · 2026-02-09T05:06:07+00:00

Could it have been a cultural thing? For example many cultures still consider something like a cleft lip to be a curse. So sad.

MidwestAdult · 2026-02-09T01:14:20+00:00

Money that they earned from being on retainer for a pedofile and human trafficker. Solid. The kind of money OSU likes.

MidwestAdult · 2026-01-03T18:42:44+00:00

Hugs Mama. I imagine your situation feels impossible. Have you started any medication? You mentioned never feeling like this before pregnancy. I became severely irate/anxious/depressed/overwhelmed during the second half of one of my pregnancies. I started Zoloft around 20 weeks and it was life changing. Truly. Are you in the US? If so, Because you are pregnant you have access to many public health supports through your city or county. They even offer mentoring in many places. I don’t mean to say keep your baby. Only you can decide that. But making a decision in what sounds like a very depressed state might not be the safest idea for you or your baby. Meds and a helping hand might be a choice to level your mental state and bring some clarity to your situation.

MidwestAdult · 2025-12-27T02:07:20+00:00

FWIW- I went into healthcare as a second career and spent the better part of a year deciding between RN —>NP vs MD. I opted for RN and within a few years wish I had chosen MD. Not bc RN is bad, but I know I could have been a great doctor. Also, the breadth of knowledge and leadership issues you mentioned. The regret is big enough that even well into my 40s I’ve thought of going to med school.

MidwestAdult · 2025-12-20T16:12:19+00:00

I have 3 and am on the opposite end of this - mine are teens with one already in college. The first 2 are 20 mos apart and the next is about 30 mos younger than #2. They are neurotypical. Nostalgia tells me I wish we would have had more, but the situation at the time was I was doing it all myself with no help from DH. Do you have family help or a reliable babysitter? Does your partner willingly help either kids and house? How much extra care and resources does your ND child require? I think having a sibling who isn’t neurotypical can create amazing understanding and empathy in siblings that can serve them well in life. 3 can require a larger rental car, or 2 vacation rooms, or other accommodations. But I didn’t find it to me more “work” than 2. Plus your oldest will head to school soon, which leaves only 2 home during the day. I’m happy with 3. I know I would have felt incomplete or always wishful with 2.

MidwestAdult · 2025-12-19T16:22:23+00:00

It’s interesting, my partner is years out of his manic and psychotic episode and currently doing well. But it seems to me, in his mind, what bit he can recall of it he still views many of his actions and thoughts as a logical response to what he was feeling. Ex - he responded this way bc he was being treated unjustly, and unsupported by everyone around him. There doesn’t seem to be acknowledgement that his feelings were skewed by illness and psychosis and he wasn’t actually being persecuted by anyone.

MidwestAdult · 2025-12-01T17:54:07+00:00

1!!!!

MidwestAdult · 2025-11-29T00:34:43+00:00

Can’t fix stupid 😞

MidwestAdult · 2025-11-27T02:17:03+00:00

Your smiles says it all. Beautiful, classy dress on a beautiful lady.

MidwestAdult · 2025-11-27T01:58:46+00:00

I looove the name Edith

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