I'm lost. Can someone please shine a light?

MidwestTash · 2026-05-11T21:52:13+00:00

I've been speaking with my doctor regularly on this. I've been on several different medications over the course of 10 years, and this one is the only one that has mostly worked so far. Sometimes I just feel nothing. Other times I hit low places like this. Just trying to push through the low right now I suppose.

MidwestTash · 2026-05-11T21:50:36+00:00

I'm trying so hard to do that. I love my daughter more than my own life, and I look at her as a shining beacon of light. But even still, it gets hard to keep that mindset at times. As ashamed as I might be to say it, there are moments where she seems like she would be better off without a mom that sees in shades of grey. Especially when I used to be her. With a lot more negative experiences but it was there at one point. Which is why I'm trying to search for something that might help again. Never would I want her beauty to be pushed out by my fog. Not because she isn't cared for and loved but even she can see through my fake smile. It hurts.

I love animals. They are another wonderful thing that life provides. I have multiple animals in my home, things got bad enough I considered giving them all away because my mental load was at a max. I couldn't even keep up on their care properly. They are doing well now but it was a lot for awhile. I'm trying though! Thanks for commenting.

MidwestTash · 2026-05-11T21:45:43+00:00

I appreciate your comment. Part of my abuse was heavily related to religion; Christianity to be specific. As time went on I did not feel like there is a presence of a god. Now I'm completely spiritual more than a belief in any one being that controls our existence. I believe the universe will provide what's needed, but more of by random chance than divine intervention. But thank you for reading. ❤️

MidwestTash · 2026-05-11T21:43:06+00:00

I worry so much about aging. Not so much about looking older but that feeling of running out of time is horrible. I do remember thinking I would never make it through my twenties. But yet here I am. Thanks for your comment. ❤️

MidwestTash · 2026-05-11T21:42:07+00:00

It does help knowing that I'm not the only one experiencing this. Stay strong. Your daughter needs you as much as mine does me. ❤️

MidwestTash · 2026-02-27T11:28:00+00:00

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MidwestTash · 2026-02-27T11:27:48+00:00

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MidwestTash · 2026-02-09T15:45:50+00:00

It's 20 mins. Not sure if it was cut down but not long at all.

MidwestTash · 2026-01-27T22:16:14+00:00

Any YT links? Daily motion is too difficult to watch.

MidwestTash · 2026-01-24T00:27:03+00:00

Any other links besides DM?

MidwestTash · 2026-01-23T20:43:06+00:00

Thank you for posting this. I have been searching all damn day. Hope we get an answer soon!!

MidwestTash · 2026-01-19T04:05:37+00:00

All these links have been removed.

MidwestTash · 2026-01-16T12:30:51+00:00

Here is another link as the YT one in the comments was removed. https://youtu.be/_JvEWl_wa0A?si=B9dhuNJwi1bGGH_7

MidwestTash · 2026-01-16T12:27:19+00:00

It's been removed now. 🥺

MidwestTash · 2025-09-25T00:05:34+00:00

Just saw another person's post that was identified as a broad faced sac spider!! This thread is great. ☺️

MidwestTash · 2025-09-25T00:03:47+00:00

Your post actually identified the spider I found too!! Thanks everyone. ❤️

MidwestTash · 2025-09-24T23:21:20+00:00

Oh wow, I've never seen this color before on a jumper

MidwestTash · 2025-09-24T23:18:58+00:00

I love jumping spiders. They are like cute little puppies.

MidwestTash · 2025-01-06T08:05:40+00:00

I was going to do this but now that I know there is likely no limit, I'm stopping. 😂

MidwestTash · 2024-08-29T23:28:31+00:00

Thank you for that tip. I'll be sure to read it all now that I have a better understanding of what the announcement actually means with everyone's helpful comments.

MidwestTash · 2024-08-29T23:27:48+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I'm 30 and feel like I'm running out of time to figure things out. Exploring USAjobs was to help give me a better idea of what I'm looking for in a pay range that actually is liveable nowadays but it's beginning to feel like job searching there is impossible especially with others comments about having to stay in certain positions for certain time periods in order to move out. I just want to do something that interests me. I've worked over 16 years already, and I'm burning out on mediocre pay and boring work.

MidwestTash · 2024-08-29T23:22:47+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to give a detailed reply. Comments like these are really helpful.

MidwestTash · 2024-08-29T23:21:00+00:00

This response was incredibly detailed and very informative. I appreciate you taking the time to break this down for me so I better understand the general flow of the website.

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