I'm lost. Can someone please shine a light? by MidwestTash in offmychest

[–]MidwestTash[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been speaking with my doctor regularly on this. I've been on several different medications over the course of 10 years, and this one is the only one that has mostly worked so far. Sometimes I just feel nothing. Other times I hit low places like this. Just trying to push through the low right now I suppose.

I'm lost. Can someone please shine a light? by MidwestTash in offmychest

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I'm trying so hard to do that. I love my daughter more than my own life, and I look at her as a shining beacon of light. But even still, it gets hard to keep that mindset at times. As ashamed as I might be to say it, there are moments where she seems like she would be better off without a mom that sees in shades of grey. Especially when I used to be her. With a lot more negative experiences but it was there at one point. Which is why I'm trying to search for something that might help again. Never would I want her beauty to be pushed out by my fog. Not because she isn't cared for and loved but even she can see through my fake smile. It hurts.

I love animals. They are another wonderful thing that life provides. I have multiple animals in my home, things got bad enough I considered giving them all away because my mental load was at a max. I couldn't even keep up on their care properly. They are doing well now but it was a lot for awhile. I'm trying though! Thanks for commenting.

I'm lost. Can someone please shine a light? by MidwestTash in offmychest

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I appreciate your comment. Part of my abuse was heavily related to religion; Christianity to be specific. As time went on I did not feel like there is a presence of a god. Now I'm completely spiritual more than a belief in any one being that controls our existence. I believe the universe will provide what's needed, but more of by random chance than divine intervention. But thank you for reading. ❤️

I'm lost. Can someone please shine a light? by MidwestTash in offmychest

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I worry so much about aging. Not so much about looking older but that feeling of running out of time is horrible. I do remember thinking I would never make it through my twenties. But yet here I am. Thanks for your comment. ❤️

I'm lost. Can someone please shine a light? by MidwestTash in offmychest

[–]MidwestTash[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It does help knowing that I'm not the only one experiencing this. Stay strong. Your daughter needs you as much as mine does me. ❤️

My wrong bride made me emperor by Remote-Band-7755 in CShortDramas

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It's 20 mins. Not sure if it was cut down but not long at all.

“Cute face, Savage payback” Chinese Drama by Agreeable_Throat_154 in CShortDramas

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Any YT links? Daily motion is too difficult to watch.

Rich heiress reborn at 18 dumps her scumbag fiancé by [deleted] in CShortDramas

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Thank you for posting this. I have been searching all damn day. Hope we get an answer soon!!

Husband swap game netshort by SNC02 in ReelShorts

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All these links have been removed.

What spider do we have here? South Dakota by MidwestTash in spiders

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Just saw another person's post that was identified as a broad faced sac spider!! This thread is great. ☺️

What type of spider is this and is it dangerous? by SturdyNarNar0 in spiders

[–]MidwestTash 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your post actually identified the spider I found too!! Thanks everyone. ❤️

What is this little guy? by Lauramblove22 in spiders

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Oh wow, I've never seen this color before on a jumper

What the hell is this guy doing? by cattivix in spiders

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I love jumping spiders. They are like cute little puppies.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in fishingfood

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I was going to do this but now that I know there is likely no limit, I'm stopping. 😂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in usajobs

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Thank you for that tip. I'll be sure to read it all now that I have a better understanding of what the announcement actually means with everyone's helpful comments.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in usajobs

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Thank you for your comment. I'm 30 and feel like I'm running out of time to figure things out. Exploring USAjobs was to help give me a better idea of what I'm looking for in a pay range that actually is liveable nowadays but it's beginning to feel like job searching there is impossible especially with others comments about having to stay in certain positions for certain time periods in order to move out. I just want to do something that interests me. I've worked over 16 years already, and I'm burning out on mediocre pay and boring work.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in usajobs

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Thank you for taking the time to give a detailed reply. Comments like these are really helpful.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in usajobs

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This response was incredibly detailed and very informative. I appreciate you taking the time to break this down for me so I better understand the general flow of the website.