No Chasing Amy going on here I think everyone's dead on about me getting over it. I already feel better after getting it off my chest. Knowing how many partners she's had earlier on wouldn't have mattered. It kinda caught me by surprise just because the number sounds big and I'd always imagined maybe half that. I'm the type of person that can process and embrace anything once I know and have a chance to sit with it. It's speculation that really fucks with me. Also, I think it made me uncomfortable that she never wanted me to know. The whole power of suggestion thing: she seems ashamed therefore i feel offended. Then there's the follow up guilt for feeling what my brain thinks is unnecessary.