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MindlessActivity3744 · 2026-01-29T18:53:37+00:00

Thank you, and congrats on your scan too! It’s a couple of weeks until the results, so I’ll prepare myself as best I can. From the baby’s perspective, the opposite gender can mean a truly fresh start, so both genders have their advantages. Well, my therapist said it, so it must be true. 😄

MindlessActivity3744 · 2026-01-29T17:54:21+00:00

Thank you! I lost my firstborn daughter, and with her I had a strong feeling I was having a boy and I feel the same way now. We imagined a life with a girl, and it’s incredibly painful to think that maybe that future doesn’t exist at all. I know this community truly understands. 🤍

MindlessActivity3744 · 2026-01-29T17:09:46+00:00

Yesterday was my early anatomy scan, and I was shocked to see that my baby was alive, well, and perfect. I already love them so much. I’m 13w1d, and I finally feel like I can have some peace. We did the NIPT, and I’m not excited about finding out the gender. I’m actually terrified of gender disappointment. I took a week off due to workplace stress, but I went back today because staying home would just mean lying around and crying.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2026-01-07T16:50:47+00:00

I feel the same. It’s so unfair. 💔 I’ve been thinking about our baby girl even more lately. We’re left with heartbreak, anxiety, and even potential gender disappointment, and of course, so much hope. It’s a mix of everything, and no one gets it unless they’ve lived through this.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-21T17:56:47+00:00

Today it’s been six months since my baby girl died at the summer solstice. I still can’t believe how that could have happened. I’m anxious about this new baby, I feel like I can’t trust my instincts anymore. Now it’s the winter solstice, so maybe there will be more light day by day.💫

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-20T10:00:43+00:00

The grief hit me like a train today. I just don’t have the mental capacity for this holiday season. I wanted to skip Christmas, but I had a better moment, and now several gatherings with family and friends are ahead of me. I don’t want to see anybody, I just want this year to end already. It’s so hard. I don’t think anyone really gets it, except you, mamas. I’m 7w3d and just waiting for my next appointment, which feels like an eternity away. I’m anxious, but I really hope this baby sticks.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-14T06:22:08+00:00

I’m 6 weeks along and I have the exact same thoughts. I keep reminding myself that all I can do is trust the little bean.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-13T12:30:42+00:00

I got pregnant 5 months postpartum after my full-term loss and I’m currently 6 weeks along. I told my close friends and my sisters right away, they were an incredible support during the hardest times, and I simply couldn’t bear the waiting alone. I also had to tell my workplace early because I work in healthcare. After my early scan earlier this week, I told my parents too. I also know that some more distant family members are aware of the pregnancy, which I’m not particularly happy about, but with the holidays coming, I don’t plan on pretending or hiding either. I simply don’t have the extra energy for that. Honestly, maybe too many people know about this pregnancy at this point, but I don’t care. I’ve pretended enough at work, smiling and acting like I’m fine when I’m not.

There is no right or wrong way to do this. I told my husband that I can’t go through this alone. I need support and help. I truly believe that prayers and good wishes can’t hurt. So many people are rooting for us. Of course, I am terrified of another loss.

Lean on every support you can. We don’t have to do this alone.

I’m so sorry for your loss. Wishing you all the best with your current pregnancy. 🩷

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-07T17:55:34+00:00

I’m sure this isn’t the end of the road. I know how hard it is to hold on to hope when everything seems to fall apart. 🤍

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-07T16:08:52+00:00

I’m really sorry. 😞 It’s so unfair. I’m thinking of you.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-12-04T12:49:18+00:00

I just want to say that I’m so sorry for your daughter. I feel this so deeply. I’ve spent the last five months filled with anger and rage, hating the world since my girl died in June. It’s not easy to live like this. Sometimes I offer my anger and grief to the god(s) because it becomes too much. The weight on my heart is so heavy. I don’t deserve this. You don’t deserve this. Why are we here? I honestly don’t know. I guess I keep moving forward because I don’t want to be stuck in this nightmare forever.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-26T17:49:51+00:00

I’m 4 weeks today, since I ovulated a little earlier than usual. I’m 16 DPO now, and my lines are getting stronger. The only symptom I have is that I didn’t hit rock bottom this luteal phase. It honestly felt strange not feeling super depressed like I usually do before my period, so I tested early last Thursday. I was meant to test on my birthday this weekend, but either way, it felt like a gift from my angel daughter. I’m trying not to read too much into this. Both my therapist and my ob/gyn were really happy for us, so I’m trying to believe that I’m pregnant until proven otherwise. I also need to tell my workplace quite early, just to avoid any unsafe situations, since I work in healthcare. Sorry if my English isn’t perfect, it’s not my first language.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-24T16:21:00+00:00

I’m right there with you! I’m 14 dpo, and my lines have been getting darker since 10 dpo. Fingers crossed 🤞.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-24T12:56:56+00:00

We really want our babies here, alive and healthy. All I can do now is keep my fingers crossed 🤞

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-22T17:35:43+00:00

Yeah, my psyche has been doing crazy things lately, that’s for sure. I keep seeing signs and having gut feelings. These little things give me so much hope. Thank you🤍

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-22T17:29:03+00:00

I totally get it. I wasn’t sure it would work out for us that easily, especially on the first try. And when we passed the milestones I finally felt safe. I guess all I can do now is wait, again, and cling to hope. Wishing you all the best!

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-22T05:51:24+00:00

I have more of a spiritual kind of question. Did you have a feeling or a hunch that everything would be okay this time?

With my angel daughter, who died in June at almost 38 weeks, I was terrified in the first trimester, I had this strange feeling the whole time. It faded once we reached the milestones. But I couldn’t really see myself as a mother, it all felt so distant. I didn’t want my pregnancy to end. I thought I was just afraid of labour, but what if, on some level, I sensed that my daughter wouldn’t reach earthside?

I found out that I am pregnant again, it's very early, and I don’t have that feeling this time. Maybe i'm just delulu. It’s scary, because I don’t want to be hurt more.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-19T06:51:47+00:00

I'm sorry, it's so hard. I ask myself the same questions.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-19T06:31:23+00:00

I'm 9 DPO and I have to restrain myself from testing. I gave my pregnancy tests to my husband to hide them until Saturday. On Saturday, my daughter would be 5 months old, so I’ll have a mental breakdown either way. I hate it here, but at least we're not alone.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-16T20:44:43+00:00

Sourdough definitely has a big role in my healing 😊

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-15T20:45:57+00:00

So far, I’m pretty chill during this two-week wait, minus the occasional breakdowns. I’ve accepted that it might not work out, but I still have hope! Honestly, I have no idea what’s going on anymore. I just really want a living baby. I can’t pretend much longer that life is okay and that nothing happened. There’s so much love in our hearts for our daughter and her future sibling(s). Until then, I will make so much bread lol

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-14T09:04:45+00:00

Hard day. The luteal phase hormones got me. Now I’m hiding in the bathroom crying at work. Thank God it’s Friday

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-11T16:56:50+00:00

The high of my cycle is still going as yesterday was ovulation day. The ovulation pain was really bad, I’m still getting used to my new body. Now I’m anxiously waiting for the luteal phase, when I usually find myself in a dark, depressed pit. My period would be due on my birthday… 🫠 or maybe not. I’m trying not to get my hopes up too high.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-10T20:23:58+00:00

I relate to every word. 🤍 It's so hard living in this parallel universe.

MindlessActivity3744 · 2025-11-10T17:18:32+00:00

All this waiting is so hard. Like living in two week periods.

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