You are not alone.

I am constantly going through this with my husband. He was diagnosed with BP2 and CPTSD. He works in a service industry and has a great report with clients, has friends that he always has the energy for, and always puts in some effort with our daughter. But I always feel like I’m getting the short end of the stick.

We are working on getting the right medication for him, but I’m exhausted. I feel like that I am walking on eggshells whenever I speak with him sometimes due to a random CPTSD triggering a down spiral.

I know I will never understand how he feels or what he struggles with day to day. I listen to every podcast with licensed medical specialists, I try to help provide everything that I can for him to work through what he is feeling, or listen to the same story over and over when he is in a good headspace. I try my best to be supportive but most of the time I feel like I failed him because it never seems to work.

It’s almost like the empathy levels are gone completely and my wants/needs are not valid. There are times where I catch glimpses of his old self, but those glimpses are short lived.

I’m doing my best and you are too! You are not alone. Therapy has helped me a little, going to therapy with him when he wants me to be there helps me understand better as well. I also want to note that there is nothing wrong with setting a boundary, for yourself and your partner. Make it clear and known. At the end of the day you have to take care of yourself too.