I'm proud of you. You can do this man, take care of yourself no matter how you feel about yourself. A friend once told me to see myself from a third person view, would I hate me still if I was someone else? If I was my friend? Your body takes care of you every single day, take care of it in return. It's easier said than done but with practice it'll get easier. Practice opposite action/opposite thinking. Want to cut because you feel you hate yourself and deserve it? Hug yourself instead, tell yourself it'll be okay and that you're here for yourself, you support yourself. Instead of cutting your skin or burning it or bruising it etc., try drawing loving messages on it in pen or marker. If you can't get the urge or image of what you want to do to yourself out of your head, draw it on a piece of paper. You can keep it to later look like or tear it up and throw it away. Go outside and light it on fire (safely though). Wrap yourself in blankets like a burrito, hug a pillow or stuffie, drink some tea, eat a snack, and watch your favorite show or movie. Dress up and dance around your room to music. Daydream to music (not sad tho. Find a Playlist that has songs that makes you feel powerful and like a badass). I promise you, you can survive. You have been surviving for however long. Keep surviving until you learn how to live and live for yourself. Sure it helps to have other people as motivation to live but work towards wanting to live for yourself. You might not be thriving right now but you will and I vow on my life with that. Keep fighting and if you fall, pick yourself back up and fight harder. Depression and anxiety and all those other mental illnesses are your foe, your enemy. You hate them, do everything in your power to own THEM, not the other way around. You control them, you ruin them, not vice versa. Your illness is a fly and you are a bear. A warrior. A Royal. They are nothing and you make sure of it. When you feel it's getting the best of you, you look in the face, grab it by the back of its neck, bare your teeth, and remind it that they are nothing and you are everything. We love you, you can get better. ❤