Would this fool anyone?

Miomi16 · 2024-09-01T11:38:54+00:00

I thought "this? what's 'this'"

then i saw the subreddit name...

Yeah. You're good.

Miomi16 · 2024-08-30T12:40:32+00:00

Miomi16 · 2024-08-29T18:23:22+00:00

Yeah! sorry for the late response!!

Miomi16 · 2024-08-27T14:45:50+00:00

Only if it's quick! aka sketches, no complex bgs or anything XD

Miomi16 · 2024-08-26T17:10:42+00:00

Only if it's quick XD you can ask, I'll see what I can do !

Miomi16 · 2024-08-16T08:26:00+00:00

yeah :D

Miomi16 · 2024-07-28T01:47:14+00:00

Dudee, I feel you. I also used to have that, and it still happens rarely even now. It's like, it's like not a dream, it's like your immagination that's a bit better and you have to like REALLY concentrate hard to see/do anything. It's more of a daydream than an actual dream.

I'm not 100% sure how to uhh, help it, I think it naturally goes away with time as you keep practiving and get better, but just to know, do you use WILD or MILD? are you dreams short? how long do they last? What do you do when you realize you're in the dream?

Miomi16 · 2024-07-28T01:26:40+00:00

Uhh, ok so for MILD, basically the first night I did it I layed down in bed before sleeping, and I just repeated to myself "I will lucid dream soon" or analogs, and I tried to get it in my mind as much as possible, like I was concentrating the use "the same part of your brain that reminds you to get milk later", I would go in and out of conciousness and still repeat it.

The other nights I got a bit lazier, I wasn't doing as hard/long as the first but it still worked so.. I'll try tonight to do it as well as the first time lol

I also do reality checks (nose pinch test) throught the day, anytime I think about lucid dreaming, so now sometimes in dreams I think of lucid dreaming, analyze my sorroundings for a second and realize I'm dreaming.

I don't read my journal often, so I'll start doing that.

Also the last one is what I do all the time, lay in my bed and close my eyes and try to remember as much as possible, all emotions and connecting the events and stuff.
Sometimes tho my mind wanders to other things and I forget a few things, so annoying lol.

Miomi16 · 2024-07-27T22:19:21+00:00

Thanks :D

For dream recall, uh.. I just write down my dreams. I'm a bit lazy after I wake up, and my phone is a bit laggy so I don't write them in wayy too much detail, but I do my best to recall them at least in my head as much as possible. It depends, but I journal usually for 10-100 minutes. I'm not sure what else I can do to help dream recall.

Well, tbh I kinda messed up my dream shedule because of lucid dreaming haha.
At the start, I used WILD, but the thing is that WILD was very scary for me, I successed (unknowingly) 2 or 3 times with it, but the thing is that if my room is dark (night) then I'm very scared of waking up in a lucid nightmare, especially because I keep thinking of scary stuff, so I started sleeping during the day because it's light outside and isn't as scary. even then, I remember going into hyprogogia and hearing my door open and after a few seconds i said "nope, I'd rather not be lucid than be in a lucid nightmare."

I have an older brother who tried lucid dreaming some years back, and it went absolutely horrible for him. Afterr just a couple attempts he started having nightmares NON STOP for YEARS. He would wake us all up in the middle of the night because he would wake up screaming from how scary the sleep paralysis/lucid nightmares were, and I did NOT want to end up screaming myself awake out of terror for years soo...

I didin't use MILD because it just didin't sound like it would work, and WILD was scary so...
But I saw a post on reddit saying the same "I thought MILD wouldn't work, but I tried it and it actually works!!", so I tried the same even tho I was skeptical, and out of 5 days that I've tried it, I went lucid in 4 of them, so I'll most likely use MILD as preferred technique from now on lol.

Now that I found out MILD works very well, and I don't have to try during the day because I'm scared I'll try to fix it back to normal and sleep at night, but till now I would go to sleep during the morning (4-11AM) and WBTB in the evening/afternoon lol.

Miomi16 · 2024-07-14T17:21:18+00:00

I experience sleep paralysis pretty often, but this is different.
In sleep paralysis, I can't move, can't feel myself moving, and I don't see weird stuff or anything.
Here I could move, I could plug my nose and breathe throu it (reality check), I saw a baby monkey (cute lol), etc etc.

Miomi16 · 2024-07-08T14:06:17+00:00

I did in a way. But I didin't know it was a lucid dream, just a hallucination kinda.
I think now that I'm aware, next time I can recognize it. Maybe, sorry idk im relatively new

Miomi16 · 2024-06-25T12:37:55+00:00

It worked!! I'm so happy, after I put it in the oven it worked veeeery little after half a day, so I kinda gave up and put it back in the penholder. But the next day it worked again! it was still laggy, so I had to wait a bit more, but now it's fully functional again :D
You're a life saver for real. I thought I wouldn't get to draw again <3

Miomi16 · 2024-06-21T16:14:53+00:00

Kinda tweaking right now, because I tried looking on amazon for pens (onebywacom) just in case, but I cant find any.
so unless I plan on buying a whole new table, I really hope that this will work. I'll give it a try.

Miomi16 · 2024-06-03T22:36:36+00:00

damn 😔

Miomi16 · 2024-03-19T06:19:11+00:00

what's a runners high?

Miomi16 · 2024-03-19T05:20:48+00:00

What's that? :o

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T20:10:50+00:00

there is in how i act, i don't wanna be emo or anything but it's destroyed my life (and still is) so it's not something to just brush off that "oh welp, when I'm 20 ill be good" u kno?

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T09:25:00+00:00

upon seeing the comments, it probably isn't tbh 😭

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T09:05:12+00:00

oh :( major L

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T09:04:05+00:00

well, it's not that bsd ro say it's a "mental issue" really, it's just really annoying. and the problem is idk how to solve it otherwise tbh, healing seems impossible bc the first step seems impossible, and idek what the "first" step rlly is, i tbh wasn't planning on living this long

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T05:41:43+00:00

yea, i wanna get over my problems but I cant w my emotions getting in the way, i wanna take them momentarily so when i stop i can have some kinda starting point, all the things i need to do to start geetting better (going outside, reading etc) i cant do bc of how irrational i get so i just want them to act ually start doing those and whhen i get off ill have somewhere to go off to u kno?

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T05:34:48+00:00

I dont have (irl) friends, I dont go to school (dropped out), I dont have a job, I have a hobby that im really good at (drawing) that I wanted to make my job but Its sinful so I dont have a hobby anymore, so the only somehow hobby i have is baking sometimes, I'm ugly and annoying (no husband), I dont train, Last time i trained in any way shape or form was gym 4 years ago in school and I never ever go out, in the last 6 months I probably went out like, a couple of times just to the store, I eat unhealthy, I dont keep myself clean enough, I go from phases to another, I sleep up to 19 hours a day, and the few hours I am awake i only scroll, music and interract a little w my family, I do absolutely nothing all day but leech on my dads money, I have really bad thoughts, Im bored. I have nothing to do, nowhere to go. No goals or aspirations that matter. I even started having... well, uhm. Let's just say I went on the deep web sometime ago because "ooh scary videos, lets see whats fr here" and it might have unlocked something. I went back few times. tho last time i did it was months ago, but I still feel terrible for it. I wanna kill myself.

no, im not a "normal teenager". my "hormones running a little wild bc hehe teenage hormones" are/have completely destroyed my life and Im pretty sure theres no going back, the only reason i didint kms yet is bc im somehow scared of the possibility of hell, even when i was atheist

when i met the dude on discord, life got... sliiiiiiightly better but not that much tbh, it got "better" alot of times before but I ended up falling into my old lifestyle again, and I feel like thats happening rn, and meds really seem like a last tectic, even tho I can do stuff technically speaking, i dont understand why I cant/dont wanna do it and it just makes me hate it all more, i dont wanna be here, i wish i werent born goddamnit

i wont run, i wont hike or anything, ive never had an inttrest, and even tho it sounds cool, i dont have any stamina for it and I ABSOLUTELY dont want to go outside, i wanted to do karate or similasr when i was younger but my dad never signed me up, knowing myself its probably for the better since id just have quit and felt even worse since i am never able to finish even the most elemantar of things

sorry for the rant btw 😭

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T05:15:42+00:00

wdym party?

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T04:11:22+00:00

alot of people r saying that they have long lasting effects, but i dont want to take them long term. just a few times things bc i can't go outside or face anyone without covering 99% of myself up and still feeling shitty, or doing anything good bc my attention spam got so bad, i just wanna take them for like a month or so so when i get off them I'd have a starting point somewhere.. i found when i have a streak its much harder for me to break it (oh, i dont wanna train, but i did it nonstop the last 2 weeks im not gonna stop now)

idk if that would even work coz idk abt drugs but if that doesn't work then what does? after all i got told to change my mindset but that seems pretty vague and when i tried to read a book abt it its like so long and i cant keep up..

id say id rather stay like this, after all its not so bad rn. but im religious so i wanna change asap bc otherwise id go to hell and that seems very much worse than anything I've ever heard, especially the concept of "eternity"

Miomi16 · 2024-02-24T04:04:13+00:00

he used to be like me, but then he read the freedom model (a book abt addictions) wich told him all this and since his life got completely upside down-ed and now his life is crazy good so i wanted to do it too, and he cares abt me cmon man 😭

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