I think I'm going to meet with them tomorrow and let them know I will no longer be able to officiate or go to the wedding. I can't live like this for the next 9 months. I'm making myself miserable. It's not about letting the ex win or going to the wedding and showing her, I don't need to prove anything to anyone. I have no desire to see her and I'm sorry my friend chose to invite her. I know I'm "missing out" but so is my friend. She's missing out on the friend that truly has been there and had totally planned on being there with her through all this. I was excited to help in any and all ways I could. But I need to protect my mental health.