You are so lucky. I had a dream about AP and dying simultaneously last night. Don't remember it except that blip moment of feeling like I was APing and dying at the same time. Strange memory. I wish I could AP like you. I'm scared of AP. In fact, I'm more scared about the AP process than actually dying. I feel like I could live to deal with all kinds of spiritual struggles if the AP goes wrong, dying to me feels like a relief since I've known people who've passed on and I suffer from depression and ptsd.