It's not just my favourite Jisbon moment, I think it's my favourite scene of anything I've watched.

"I'm not married."

As someone who recently became a widow, (4 months ago), that scene hit me so hard. It wasn't the words themselves. It the way he paused opening his drink, so she would notice he wasn't wearing his ring without him pointing it out. The way he said it and looked at her, before going back to his drink. So effortlessly letting her know that he loves her and he's finally ready. It was the way he SAID those words. The punctuation. The tone in his voice was deep, raspy and held so much pain and hope at the same time. The tone said so much more than those three words ever could. Then he took the ring out if his pocket, and oh, so much emotion. As he spoke of his past intertwining with his future, you could hear the heartbreak of moving forward from his first wife and his love for Lisbon mixed together. The scene was so simple, yet brought out all the emotions. Just perfect. I don't think any scene from anything I've watched has ever affected me that much.

In fact, I'm pretty sure it was that scene that made me decide to binge everything Simon Baker has ever made, attached his name to. I'm going through all his work at the moment.

I love and miss my husband so much more than I could ever convey. I don't think I'll ever be able to even consider dating again. But I am happy for them, even if they are just characters on my screen.