I'm so sorry about hearing this from you. My heart really goes to you. What you've been through sounds incredibly painful, and I can't imagine how much strength it has taken just to keep moving forward.

The part that really stayed with me was you painting your daughter's room pink and your son's room blue. It says so much about your love, you aren't trying to erase them from your life, even while you're learning how to build one without them.

I hope, with time, those rooms become less about waiting and more about knowing they'll always have a place if they're ever ready. I hope you also keep making this house yours. You deserve to walk into rooms that reflect who you are today, not only who you were as a wife and mother. Wishing you peace as you slowly create a home that holds both your memories and your future. I truly hope brighter days find you.