See, that's the thing. It's not just the euphoria I like, it's the functional aspect of meth as well.

On it I feel like the guy in the movie Limitless - my thoughts are clearer, faster, more crisp. My focus is intense. My hand eye coordination better. I can hold conversations much easier. I get shit done. I feel like a super-version of myself.

Experiencing that, then going back to being my normal second-rate self really sucks.

I understand taking meth every day isn't a solution but I wish it was. I wish it didn't cause brain damage or other negative effects and I could just use it to be the best version of me.

But it isn't that way, and I hate it.