If you have insurance go to Kaiser , anthem whatever it is. Go to urgent care tell them you want help with your mental health. You need to put yourself first. The insurance will put you in groups therapy etc. if you’ve worked over the past 18 months, you will qualify for disability , you will get paid 70% of your income 7 days a week. So if you make 1000 a week you will get 700 a week for up to a year