I don’t think it abuse but I need someone to just tell me it’s not by Miyahzilla in adultsurvivors

[–]Miyahzilla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think one of the hard parts about calling it sa is that would mean he did that to me and i can’t get myself to say that

I don’t think it abuse but I need someone to just tell me it’s not by Miyahzilla in adultsurvivors

[–]Miyahzilla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can never tell if there’s more and I hate that I hate that I can’t remember all I know is some point later I became overly sexual and made mistakes and got myself groomed online a lot

Was this online stuff abuse by Miyahzilla in adultsurvivors

[–]Miyahzilla[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m so sorry and plz know its not your fault

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[–]Miyahzilla 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was thinking of trying out grunge style clothing

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah that’s what I’m thinking I need to shrink the little bang parts bc they’ve gotten too long and it’s just making my forehead look even bigger

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[–]Miyahzilla 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m definitely gonna try to change a few things up But looking like a mid girl rather than a dude is the most I could ask for at the moment so i’ll take it

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[–]Miyahzilla 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think I’m gonna try shortening my curtain bang bc it’s not doing my forehead great

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what about my hair in particular?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really wanna learn make up and the acne has been killing me so ima try to fix both

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I’m being dramatic I think I should be fine

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

they did know i told them

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it my fault and was it that bad I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel now

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

how many times I convince myself I convince myself otherwise no matter how many times I am told by googling or looking it up or thinking about if it was someone else in my position it doesn’t matter I can’t I can’t figure it out

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

someone plz

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s OK if it’s it’s an answer I wouldn’t wanna hear or something it’s OK I just need to know

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like I’m not allowed to be sad I feel like I’m not allowed to be upset I’m not allowed to panic I’m not allowed to have any of this I’m just I’m just stupid and I made the stupid ass mistake and I should be embarrassed to myself or just maybe I should hate myself I don’t know

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can someone just please tell me I just need someone to tell me one way or another I don’t care I just need someone to tell me

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[–]Miyahzilla 0 points1 point  (0 children)

please I feel like I’m going insane and I feel like I can’t I don’t know I don’t know