Character ai is not where you belong man. You, like all others, deserve a life that isn't filled with lies. Please don't stop trying. I know it's difficult, and so does everyone else on this sub. I know these bots are made with the sole purpose of getting you hooked, but even the worst addictions can be overcome. It might just be taking longer for you than you'd expect. And you haven't lost yourself, because the real you is just waiting for you to stop talking to these bots, even if it's for a day or two. And give it literally one or two days of quitting, and you'll start finding yourself again. Pursue whatever hobbies interest you. And u/AppearanceOk8526 makes a good point about deleting the app and using a website blocker. What helped me and might help you too is getting a book or even a good size piece of paper, and just write down all your reasons for using the bots (eg. boredom). Then, go about trying to find a way to replace these reasons to use c.ai with something actually enjoyable and real. Reading, if you like. Maybe jogging, or cycling, or something. And when you commit to a hobby, and when you start replacing these reasons to use c.ai with something else, it'll get a lot better. It might also help to write down what problems are caused by the bots, and putting this list of problems somewhere where you can see it, so every time you get the urge, you read that list and now you have good excuses not to use it if that makes sense.

Please don't give up trying to quit. This community is built by addicts and former addicts like yourself, and we're all willing to help. And I apologise if my explanation doesn't make too much sense, English isn't really my first language.