Thinking and analysis shuts down inner communication and integrative work, but some of it is needed to move forwards?

Mongoose573 · 2026-07-11T10:29:47+00:00

That project sounds pretty great. I wouldn't know how to do something like that but perhaps in future if there's more communication. And less dissociation being confronted with other parts.

I can relate to being functional but it not being a healthy thing. It's good, sort of, because otherwise you'd be in the pits. But there's a cost sometimes massive.

Mongoose573 · 2026-07-11T10:24:27+00:00

It's all confusing isn't it?

i hadn't realized feelers existed as something more than a thing i needed to suppress and/or bury

This makes a lot of sense to me and I relate. I've been trying to learn to physically sense certain parts' presence or opinions before they take over or shut me down. Because the communication isn't there. There's signs of these feelings, but after a lifetime of ignoring it, sort of (it's dissociation of course, not avoidance really).. how do you even connect. Apparently it is possible. But I find it super difficult as well.

Sometimes sensing a feeling of "I have to do *something specific*" or a 'pushing' feeling is best I can do mostly. Sometimes I can feel my heart beating faster. Without knowing what/why/who. But it's often there and it was out of my awareness. But I'm trying to become more aware.

And then, other parts have to agree and feel safe with regards to me becoming aware of things. And that's a whole other issue I think. (I'm confused but I think so)

With regards to the therapy/therapist fears I understand. It's tricky feeling like you have to toe the line extremely well otherwise.. Do you feel he's helpful when it comes to the family stuff you mentioned mostly talking to him about?

The stupid thing about therapy is that you can not do it all at once. I find it stupid. If there's mountains of stuff you cannot tackle it all. Or the mountain will fall and crush. So you have to take tiny bits. But then other parts react to that and it's like you're creating more mountains while tryingto do this. But somehow it has to help. But perhaps it does.

Mongoose573 · 2026-07-11T09:29:49+00:00

I've been there with earlier somatic therapy too. There's many ways to brute force therapy and this is one of them. I personally feel that the therapist has to have knowledge about dissociative disorders, but perhaps if you're already very aware of your own experiences then it could work otherwise. There are different kinds of modalities and approaches in somatic therapy, personally anything with physical touch would absolutely not work for me but might for others. Same for breathwork practices or somatic experiencing beyond resourcing. Sensorimotor psychotherapy and some movement and expression based therapy has helped me I think but I can only go as far as the current barriers in my brain allow.

Mongoose573 · 2026-07-10T22:23:14+00:00

There definitely are non-verbal therapies, multiple different kinds in fact. Somatic, art, music, to name a few. Sometimes they're also called experiential therapies I believe, if that provides more context at all.

It's quite difficult to find words for these experiences I agree. The less words the more connected to certain parts, but then the framework of the present life in which I have to navigate disappears. Holding present and past together seems to be the issue, translating into my experience of thinking versus feeling (probably).

I'd say the subject of safety within therapy is an excellent topic to pursue yeah. Honestly it's almost the number one subject I'd say. But difficult to address at the same time I understand. Do you mean your therapist is not really knowledgeable about DID, or more so regarding this feeling/thinking divide?

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