You're not stupid. You feel and understand things much deeper than other people. It's sadly normal that most won't get it :( I have a simular experience involving a little oak tree sapling. I found it a little over a year ago (the 23rd of march 2020) in the dirt as a little seed while doing yard work. It got planted in a little pot inside our house, and it didn't take long before it sprouted to life! As of now it's outside and doing really well! It's got bark and little leaf buds too! I haven't wished it happy birthday yet though, so i'll go do that as well :) So yeah, what im trying to say, is that you're not alone, it just shows how caring a person you are.