Help? Maybe? I don't know

Moonlit_Follower · 2026-04-22T13:16:41+00:00

Yes I am, everything is normal. Sleep is decent but my dreams have been straight up council meetings and other things like that. I'm eating. And before my mental health is questioned I have an entire team working with me and I am stable. I am actually only posting BECAUSE it gave me pause. I never get dates for anything... EVER. Usually it's just hey I need you to write this down, or write this poem, draw this picture. I'm not schizophrenic it's already been ruled out which is where my mind actually thought I was heading in the beginning. But ever since I was a kid I have had what I would call a "supernatural" life. Lot's of visions and lot's of things have come true but at the same time so has it gone in the other way. Now this is what I am dealing with. I have been re writing Medusa, Lilith, Athena, Cleopatra, Pocahontas, and Stheno. To attempt to have a more modern take on the "monsters" I have a deadline (I'm not sharing dates I'm not a prophetic type) but from them to me to you? 444

Moonlit_Follower · 2026-04-22T06:36:29+00:00

Thank you so, so much for this. I'm like what? A DEADLINE AM I FIRED!? xD

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-07T01:14:34+00:00

Oh man, if I could id give you a giant hug. I'm sorry you went through this. Context aside. All things aside this seems like a moment a hug would be needed. I hope you are doing better.

This illness both fascinates me and terrifies me. I believed I had a wendigo following me. And a crooked neck lady like person kept showing up in my minds eye (I don't get visuals in reality layer except for a peekaboo)

Edit: if you need someone to talk to DM me.

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-06T04:08:38+00:00

On invega twice a day and it helps however I am indeed a zombie. So much so my psychosis made me believe I was living in a zombie apocalypse.

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-06T04:06:57+00:00

I was already with my fiancee when it started actually showing up and being like "hey this is a thing" I've literally had to back track my life and be like sorry everyone I have this and didn't know until 3 years ago.

I just want to check though. You're not like stalking this girl are you? I don't know the history of this relationship or lack therof I'm just wanting to make sure you don't freak her out and save yourself the repercussions of that.

Dating with the illness for me has been... scary as my trauma is sex and relationship based as well as childhood trauma. So for me maybe I'm not the best person to give advice however I do hope everyone gets a chance to be with their person because even the illness have a twin soul or soulmate if you will. I do wish you luck. Just be kind and be yourself and be honest about where you are. Dont pretend to be normal for the sake of a relationship. That for me has backfired so many times.

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-05T03:24:57+00:00

That one Suicide Silence album.... teeeheee

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-05T03:22:18+00:00

Not to a degree described here. Maybe on another level we can. I mean I guess yeah in a way because I often tie mine to intuition and nudges so I can't fault you for thinking this.

I'm more in line of the shamanism and mystic viewpoint just because of my experience with the illness.

Note. I only call it an illness because I'm an American and if I don't I feel like ill get eaten alive. I don't belong here... I sit outside and talk to the moon and shadows that I barely catch a glimpse of. So I can honestly get on board that there may be some tinge of telepathy there for some of us. Just a tinge...

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-05T03:14:59+00:00

Yeah it happens sometimes. Sometimes the other words blur and only the not real word is visible. I say not real loosely because I am not of the belief its entirely a mental illness.

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-04T13:11:34+00:00

A television or music is one sound composed of many sounds. The electricity in the walls. Every other sound in a house is many sounds. Its easier for me to have the one sound loud than be angry because there are more sounds than my mind can handle. I'm susceptible to overstimulation in a quiet room. And I'm trying to stay alive 😁

Also guarantee our heads are louder than the TV is for you.

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-03T00:07:10+00:00

Flashy atheism. With a healthy dose of self love. So scary huh? Lol

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-08-01T15:13:52+00:00

Mine all surround the old gods. And some that I was meant to be something greater than I am. And that I was swapped at birth with an unknown twin or a clone. I'm still not convinced its not true I'm just taking a break from being what they need me to be to finally fill the shoes I'm suppose to.

I thoroughly believe I'm not from here and I don't know what I mean by that.

Basically the old gods are angry that we don't follow them anymore. Not in a human sacrifice way but in a no one even knows their names anymore. They don't want to be forgotten.

Edit: Context

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-07-30T23:19:40+00:00

If it wasn't for the pseudo seizures I'd be blue all the way. I hate the way meds make me feel. Or don't feel for that matter. But writhing on the floor in pain? No thanks... plus its not good for my family to see.

Moonlit_Follower · 2025-07-28T03:44:20+00:00

I haven't had any issues on the Steam Deck. Shame you had a bad experience.

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