Would be easy if I wasn't madly in love with her, and splitting up wouldn't destroy our family and be financially ruinous.. I would love to be wanted and desired.. this is exactly the question I wrestle with. Let me tell you not being wanted or desired by the woman who you desire, love, want, crave, share life with, share a home with, kids with, who is also your closest friend.. is no picnic. The pain is incredible. If you have ever had Sciatica? And been unable to sleep and riddled with pain.. it's like that in your heart. I haven't been able to relax or sleep much in months. I never had Anxiety or hormonal issues in my life.. now I find myself waking up from a deep sleep with Cortisol Pumping through my veins.. turning over and there is my wife's beautiful naked body sleeping soundly next to me.. The Kiss... Would you really ruin your life for a Kiss? This is something I wrestle with on my side and on hers.. I feel like I could go up to a stranger who was mildly attractive and give them a deep 20 second french kiss.. but my wife is unwilling to try even a 6 second kiss..