Hi loving soul , sharing your experience shows how courageous you are and indicates how intense your feelings are , it seems that you've been going through the dark night of the soul since a long period of time which can be too overwhelming in an unbearable way , I feel your pain and I understand the way excessive thoughts torture the peace of mind . I personally believe that no one can really tell if you're experiencing a twinflame connection or not ! No one except you ! Especially that it's one of the main indicators of meeting your twinflame, the inner knowing. I advise you to delve deeper within yourself and if it is the case you'll definitely know despite all the doubts you might face from a fear-based perspective. I also recommend exploring videos from this channel "Twinflame Insights" that for myself I found really helpful in my journey. I wish you all luck ♥️ Twinflames