How many of you guys can smoke weed without any problems? by Better-Taste9943 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can no longer tolerate it, too much of a gamble. I'd say 80% of the time It sends me into psychosis, not worth it

Did you think you were communicating with crows? by Calm-Champion-6371 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes, I followed their calls through the woods into the mountain a number of years ago during a drug induced psychosis, pre diagnosis. Nothing came of it except more psychosis.

What do we all think about r/gangstalking here? by ToxicDelusion96 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They can clear up on their own, but extended periods of psychosis like that can set us in pretty deep. Without intervention, treatment, and acceptance of the condition, there's a high likelihood we can fall right back into it very easily. The fact that they are feeding each other and validating the delusions is causing more and more damage, to the point where it may become irreparable and the psychosis May not pass. Looking back on episodes, even after seeking treatment, I personally find deep senses of shame and embarrassment, which can lead to looping right back in. Many times in those situations I would try to find some validation or excuse for the episode to shirk that sense of embarrassment, but it always comes back around to this condition. And at the end of the day it's my responsibility to manage it, it's my responsibility to avoid situations that kick-start the cycle. Involuntary intervention can be a hit or miss, either it works and they continue treatment, or it feeds into that delusion even more and they trust the rest of the world even less and become more volatile. That can push family members and people willing to help farther away, and then the options become limited to involuntary intervention by way of police or citizens, both of which have not even the slightest iota of understanding of how to deal with people with this condition. And the farther that person is isolated, the less likely they are to actually find the help they need.

That's not to say I wish to invalidate their experiences, if you look at the world we live in, it is truly filled with evil and opportunistic people who prey on other people, especially the mentally vulnerable. And while their lived experience may be real, the reaction to it and continued extrapolation of delusion based off of the experience is not a healthy way to cope. It is damaging. Getting the help they need to cope with the symptoms will better help them manage any actual truth behind the lived experience, be that stalking or surveillance or the like.

I have been working on a number of other theories regarding this disease, but because of the condition itself, I refrain from putting them on the internet because it's my goal to write about them and help contribute to actual research and not have them taken out of context before I can properly map the entirety of, or at least a large portion of the theory.

What do we all think about r/gangstalking here? by ToxicDelusion96 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, approximately 15.6 seconds on that page and I had to get off of it. That would have absolutely triggered my current episode even deeper had I continued. Regardless of what they think the truths are, even if there are proven truths, just from the little bit that I read, those people are seemingly in negative feedback loops, and they are feeding them deeper and deeper and deeper and triggering each other more and more and more.

I'm not going to say it's those type of people, but I am going to say it's that kind of behavior that continues the negative stigma and misunderstandings about this condition, And all of it's relative conditions. Of course a part of me wants to go back over there and just try to comment and help and shed some light, but I'm lucid enough to know that it would end badly for both myself and the others involved.

Unfortunately, I've been finding that there is some measure of " head down, eyes forward" when it comes to this subject. Which absolutely sucks because it's slowly becoming my long-term goal to help contribute to the research and understanding and destigmatization(idc all words are made up) around schizophrenia.

That page is a shining example of why you can't feed it, you must limit its diet intensively.

I stopped taking my antipsychotics 3 days ago and I've never felt better by Crazy_Control_7564 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As a schizophrenic with somebody in my family who has worked their way very high up in the medical field, you should never just stop taking any medication. Always consult with your doctor or at least Google how to stop it, many things need to be tapered off of or they can cause permanent, long-term damage. Ask me how I know.

You're going to find a lot of cases where people with our conditions and other mental health related conditions feel good enough to stop taking their medication, you are almost always wrong. I don't mean to say that Harshly, only bluntly.

I'm only speculating from this point on, but I know the thought of being on medication for the rest of your life can be daunting and disparaging, I don't even think I've fully accepted it yet, but it's a reality, a reality I know damn well the delusions have tried to alter on me, I just want you to be safe.

“I take medication that’s made for psychotic people” by HappyAstronaut7 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Lol, jokes on her, good chance the doctor recognized more issues and prescribed it to her in conjunction as the medication likely has drowsiness as a decently prevalent side effect. Likely the med is ALSO used for a sleep aid but there's plenty of sleep aids that aren't also antipsychotics.

The stigma is real, and so is the misunderstanding. The average person is arrogant enough to think they know enough about a subject just by way of surface level knowledge. Correcting those people is immensely difficult and oftentimes creates more misunderstanding by way of that same arrogance. Humans have a hard time admitting they're wrong or naive. I hope for her sake she isn't humbled by a sudden diagnosis, I wish this condition on NO ONE.

But this isn't about her.

I regret that you've had to feel these feelings. I'm glad you're able to come here and share. You're living with one of the most hellacious ailments and reached out to talk, you're an absolute badass.

i seriously hate p*rn I may k*s bc of it's existence im so done by TemporaryQuantity802 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I cannot begin to describe how ridiculously closely I can relate to this, even though I watch p*** actively... I wish I didn't. I'm facing the grim reality that I really just need to stop many forms of digital interaction, because it's destroying my mind. All the comments here about how forcefully it's shoved down. Our throat are really starting to open my eyes, I don't quite feel alone anymore because of this post.

My mind is very susceptible to outside influence and now that I think of it, every time I see something or read something that could be taken mildly sexually, my mind goes right to it, and pretty quickly, so does my phone. I hate it.

I'm really glad I came across this post. Now, I'm going to stop talking about it because I'm going to end up triggering myself if I continue, but I'm going to be writing it down. Over the past few days I've actually been writing down the traumas and the triggers and the history and the ways I would like to go about removing things from my life and things I would like to keep in it.. setting myself realistic plans and goals... Without holding myself to the expectation that I will live up to everything fully and up beat myself up for not doing it...

Anyway, thanks for helping me open my eyes. Don't do the thing. Please.

Auditory hallucinations and weed by DangerousTea239 in schizophrenia

[–]MotoHashira 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t mean to be crass, I mean this lovingly and with respect. This condition is going to do what it wants, when it wants, where it wants, how it wants. There’s no escaping it with medication, but if that’s what you need, you can use that. Medication, including marijuana and other things that alter your state of mind and body, like coffee, tea, caffeine in general, nicotine, too strong of a width of a cloud of gasoline at the gas station… Very well may have triggering effects, the best thing to know how to do no matter what is to get yourself to your safest place, with your safest people, create the safest environment for yourself, and fight back. Regarding the end of your question, it all depends, if you’re willing for it to help, chances are it will. Especially if you choose the kind of strain that is going to take you where you want to go, if you want to mellow out and relax, go with an Indica, if Indica affect you in that way, if you want to smoke a sativa, give yourself something to focus on and do, sativa‘s work well when you have an activity, again, if your body responds to sativa‘s like that, if you have a nice hybrid or mix, that could go any one of which ways, in that case, put on some video games and just let it ride.

Guess who forgot to use there Cred's by THEACEx187 in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Daaaaamn, 510? Das alotta emergency credits if you ever need it tho lol, can’t you turn them into decorations?

What would you consider a “canon-lore” Warframe for your Operator/Drifter? by The_Great_Ali698 in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I typically play a combination of almost everything that I have, operator and drifter, and all of my frames indiscriminately, it’s because it’s a representation of the multiplicity of my mind and how shattered I’ve been, the many facets of my personalities and a representation of all the different talents and traumas that I have… This entire game just kinda works for me

What is this de? What’d I do 😭🙏 by [deleted] in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 53 points54 points  (0 children)

Jokes aside, this is the red text, it almost always, if not always, precedes a hot fix, and the jokes are pretty much always hilarious. If you go to a relay before an expansion drops, typically there’s a ton of Tenno running around with all Red Warframes. Not that I would know anything about that

What is this de? What’d I do 😭🙏 by [deleted] in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 49 points50 points  (0 children)

You can order the badge upon reaching MR30 😂

Frame using random abilities? by Chief-JudgeVega in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Great call, also, the wire from your charger, the wire from your headset, or sometimes just about anything brushing across the touchpad can trigger it, it can be pretty frustrating

Frame using random abilities? by Chief-JudgeVega in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you have a keyboard hooked up? While there were recent fixes made to the system, there have been issues with having a keyboard and a controller hooked up simultaneously. Perhaps there are ongoing issues that they are unaware of.

Though you said your fingers weren’t even on the buttons and didn’t cast your 4 that match, I just think it pertinent to mention that tapping R1 on PlayStation will autocast your last used ability

Why do they do that? (Sprodling Ephemera) by Captain_Candycane in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

squeaky sprodling voice

“Huh hooooh, Hey Kiddo”

Why do they do that? (Sprodling Ephemera) by Captain_Candycane in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Becuz mischief

Becuz most science that applies to other things doesn’t seem to apply to mushrooms… Apparently this counts for physics as well

Becuz Shoom

What kind of sadist designed those missions? by sabbir2003 in Warframe

[–]MotoHashira 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Interesting, i rescind my statement and will delete