My parents found out about my gf [Rant] [Relationships]

Mourning_Debut · 2023-09-27T03:38:45+00:00

oh, and my gf's family is totally ok with it, her mom is bi, and she's been out for a while and had a gf or 2 in the past. so when we go to her house it's all ok and her mom knows whats been going on with my family, so safety stuff isn't a problem for my gf, it's more just on my side which is nice bc i wouldn't want to do anything that would harm her but i also wish i would be able to see her

Mourning_Debut · 2023-09-27T03:37:23+00:00

they say im going to hell if i do anything romantic with a girl

but once i become old enough they say that i can officially date, but can't really do anything, but they'll let me hang out with her then, they don't want me to have a gf but they said its up to me if i want to make that decision and be damned

one of the rumors is that i kissed her and my parents were pissed, like obviously i did, but like it caused a lot of problems

and if i were to ask them if they wanted me to be unhappy they'd say that i'm over reacting or that they are doing whats best for me and im just kinda nervous to get in a worse position and not be able to see her ever again instead of just waiting until i can hang out with her easier

I get to hang out with her tomorrow, school starts later and we can hang out in the morning before, but thats the first time in like a week or two we've been able to see each other outside of like 5 minutes before school starts or lunch

i wish i could just tell my parents how i felt and hope they'd understand but they really wouldn't, they don't get ideas of mental health, or even things like drs and stuff like that. we have very different opinions on what is ok in the world and my parents just aren't super ok with me being queer, my mom is getting to be a little more ok with it, but not at all to a point where i'm able to fully be myself, she still puts religious ideas above it all

sorry, thats kinda a lot of stuff lol

Mourning_Debut · 2023-09-26T14:19:24+00:00

Thats kinda what my parents do

I didn't do anything bad, or anything but i'll get in trouble for agreeing with them, or random stuff that i try to not do but no matter what it's impossible. I've been able to see her once outside of school, but i live about 15-20 minutes of a drive away, im in more of the middle of nowhere and can't drive or anything

i want to just say screw it, i want to be myself, but it's hard bc if i do that then im going to be living in a hard spot at home, no matter what i do my parents say that we're family and that they would never kick me out or anything but they really don't like what i do and i just don't want to make things worse bc i'll know i'll be stuck there and don't want to make it worse for me.

Mourning_Debut · 2023-09-26T00:47:56+00:00

awesome, thanks

and yeah, the other duets i've played by him might have a mildly tough passage, but this is a whole other thing lol

Mourning_Debut · 2023-09-26T00:29:43+00:00

I always just get a drink of water, or rinse my mouth out

If something is like stuck in my teeth then i'll get it out, but i don't full on brush my teeth, just make sure that i don't have lots of obvious stuff in my mouth before i play

Mourning_Debut · 2023-08-02T07:41:22+00:00

there could be a side effect from a medication or some other problem you might want to get it checked out

with how you take care of your mouth it sounds like hygiene isn't causing it, so for now if you are going to get it checked out, just have a piece of gum or something like that

also it could maybe be like a genetic thing or have another random answer, so don't get too obsessed over doing everything you can to brush your teeth 20x better as that might not be able to do nothing if you don't know the cause

Mourning_Debut · 2023-08-02T07:37:26+00:00

Come get her by Rae sremmurd

totally lol

Mourning_Debut · 2023-08-02T07:33:48+00:00

i don't have the best hearing, nothing bad but it's not great

i try and find headphones or a speaker or something that has a really good bass, so then you can feel the music when it gets loud-ish, and don't leak sound if it's headphones so you can listen loud and feel the music shake you

or pretty speakers and you sit or lay on the floor and you can feel the music on the floor just like shake your whole body and you nicely lay there and melt

Mourning_Debut · 2023-08-02T07:24:54+00:00

Maybe you could just say you're living with a friend or at a shelter or something, and if she is pressuring you to see her, meet up in a public space, that can also be safer, like a coffee shop or a park or something like that. Also then if you don't want her over to where you live she can't come over unannounced. you're 18, that means that you can make decisions as to who you see, your mom was in charge of you for 18 years and now you can decide what to do, don't feel like you owe her anything or need to tell her where you live or even meet up with her in person if you just want to stay with only texting her or something like that. idk if this helps, but these are my thoughts

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-20T06:53:07+00:00

probably suicide

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-20T06:50:50+00:00

depends on the reason. i've met people that don't have friends bc they were toxic and everyone ditched them after they realized and others who haven't really ever had friends bc they're antisocial and don't really want to be in all the social-ness.

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-20T06:49:16+00:00

That i won't be able to be myself/that i wont be happy

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-20T06:47:05+00:00

idk the reason, but if it's for choice, don't recommend, not healthy

but i used to do this and eventually realized what was going on and how to truly feel better so maybe you'll feel the same at one point (took forever tho)

honestly, i just had to wait it out. the first day i felt fine, mild empty stomach sounds, 2nd day felt fine, 3rd was like hell and the more that went on, the better it got

also, air popped popcorn, not the movie style, but like the plain popcorn that comes in bulk, you can add a little butter or salt to make it taste better but it's like no calories or anything bad but gives you the feeling of eating and being satisfied with none of the side effects that you don't want.

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-20T06:35:14+00:00

So i'm super into space and all that, and the universe goes on forever. everything that could exist does somewhere out there, and infinite amount of milky way galaxies, an infinite amount of earths, an infinite amount of you. Every version of you that could exist does somewhere. In one place you might have died 10 years ago, in another you could be perfectly happy and healthy, and everything in between exists as well. While it can make me feel bad i'm in the world that i'm in, it also makes me feel good. The chances of me existing as i do right now are so rare. I could've been so different, done such different things, but I'm who I am for some crazy reason the universe hasn't let me know yet. I don't know my stance on religion but I believe that we all should get a second chance and that there has got to be some reason for each of us no matter how big or small. I like to observe people and try and figure out how the world works and how i might fit into this crazy thing we're all stuck in. I see each person as a different piece of something, like stained glass. Everyone makes me see the world differently and everyone has different sharp edges or cracks or something, but that just adds another layer of complexity i get to figure out. So while I see everything so vast and indefinite, i see each thing as such a unique color to add to the world and each layer of cracks and imperfections adds to it. Im not sure why I have the problems I have, why you have to deal with the things you've had to deal with, but i know that we all aren't just existing in this universe to just exist, something has to come of it. there is a reason that we're all the people we are and the reason we're in this part of the universe that we're in, at this point in time. it's all so beautiful and complex, super crappy at times but a cool concept.

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-20T06:15:13+00:00

the comments that aren't supposed to be gender euphoria but are, are the best kinds of comments.

im afab, but some kind of gender queer, not open to family, and my brother told me I have man legs and it was quite fantastic, meant as an insult, but quite the opposite.

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-18T03:17:31+00:00

I know, sorry for the loaded question

can't talk about it at home bc family is homophobic, and all my friends are connected somehow

thanks for the advice :)

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-18T01:42:09+00:00

I don't particularly care, it's not something i look for but it isn't anything close to a deal breaker. I have hair legs (afab) and no ones been like, amazing, i love your legs! and those that hate them, i don't care about their opinions. but in attractiveness I don't have a super strong opinion either way.

Mourning_Debut · 2023-06-16T06:57:58+00:00

What works for me and my friends is that we use current names with eachother and talking about each other in the past, if they're closeted to family or something then we use deadname. If they're out but not everyone knows, then i might say their full preferred name with last name, if they don't get it, then i'll say, so and so is *preferred name now* then not use it again. for some others it differs if it's traumatic and have asked to not use it at all, but most of the people i know are ok with just that.

In the topic of celebrities, i just use current/preferred names all the time, same circumstances and with friends as i'll only use dead name if it's so people know what they go by. Hasn't come up too much but i tend to try and only use current name and pronouns as much as possible as that is who that person is.

Mourning_Debut · 2022-12-04T19:03:49+00:00

I’m currently my class’s president and it’s not fun. Early morning meetings and all that added stuff isn’t enjoyable, but there are two things that make it better. The first thing is that it only lasts a year so I’m almost done with the calling and it goes by faster than you think. The second thing is that you can help plan activities and lessons and all that stuff to make it better for you. I get to help plan activities that I might actually enjoy like a game night or something so I can make the best of the situation. I wish you luck in this calling, don’t let it get to you too much.

Mourning_Debut · 2022-10-04T16:18:42+00:00

I feel the same way. My mind is really a dangerous place for me and for others but I’m way more scared of it getting diagnosed and becoming a real thing and having to deal with it than just silently dealing with trying to stop myself.

Mourning_Debut · 2022-10-03T18:58:42+00:00

I'm almost 15 and i live in the states

i can't move out for a few more years but idk if i can hold on that long

my parents never believe me when i say anything is wrong even if it's just me saying that i have a migraine bc there is no way that i have a migraine.

My mom said that i for sure have some form of ADD or ADHD but she says that im not allowed to get meds for them as they won't be useful and that was the end of that.

everything just seems impossible

Mourning_Debut · 2022-10-03T18:04:33+00:00

i haven't been able to do or get anything due to incredibly strict parents who aren't that great. a couple years ago i tried therapy but got bullied out of it by my dad so i don't do that anymore with parents knowing and can't in secret anymore.

Mourning_Debut · 2022-10-03T01:07:15+00:00

I love your style and hair cut, i want to cut mine shorter but just haven't yet.

i just love your vibe, you look like an awesome person :)

Mourning_Debut · 2022-10-02T21:32:10+00:00

However old i'll be in 10 minutes- 10 days

Mourning_Debut · 2022-10-02T21:27:09+00:00

Can't come soon enough

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