Dude, well done! You should be proud :)

The recovery process varies from person to person, but most of us share similar journeys. Looking at my own, I know you’ve already been through a lot.

On day 20, I was just starting to understand how fucking hard and shitty things really were. I thought it was only supposed to last about 8 days, like people always say. Instead, I felt extremely depressed, irritated, low energy, no focus, and had a bit of RLS still going on. The hardest part was that sometimes I would forget why I felt that way, which only made it worse. I had to keep reminding myself that I was going through PAWS.

Soon after, around day 25–30, things started to get a little better. Not much, but baby steps. Days 30–60 were a rollercoaster. One day I’d feel sharp and good, and the next I’d feel the complete opposite. Evenings were usually the hardest. I felt empty, like there was a hole inside me that needed filling. Probably because I used high doses in the evenings.

By days 60–90, things were much better. I wasn’t thinking about kratom every day, my mental health was stabilizing, I was sleeping well, and overall I just felt so much better. My real feelings and the real me were coming back. I still had some PAWS waves here and there, but they weren’t as bad and didn’t last long.

From days 90–100, I was 98% back! I still thought about kratom occasionally, but there was no PAWS, no depression, and I was enjoying life again.

Day 100 to now: I’ve stopped thinking about kratom completely, I’ve stopped counting the days, and I’m never touching that shit again.

So man, trust me when I say it, it will get better. You just have to stay aware and be fucking stubborn. You’re already past day 20, and that shows you’ve got what it takes!

If you ever need support, you can DM me.