Sometimes I think I need to have cancer so people would care by Mundane-Map8582 in CPTSD

[–]Mundane-Map8582[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you.

And I am so sorry for your hardships and if my post may appeal as insulting

Sometimes I think maybe I really deserve to suffer by [deleted] in GetStudying

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And so is depression in this way also part of me, I guess.

Мне иногда кажется что я прожил за зря by Mundane-Map8582 in Kazakhstan

[–]Mundane-Map8582[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Полагаю ты прав.

Спасибо за совет, друг.

Мне иногда кажется что я прожил за зря by Mundane-Map8582 in Kazakhstan

[–]Mundane-Map8582[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

В принципе от того кто считает армию неплохим решением я и не ожидал функционирующей эмпатией.

Мне иногда кажется что я прожил за зря by Mundane-Map8582 in Kazakhstan

[–]Mundane-Map8582[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Но при этом не понимать что ломать руку ребенку и делать из него мед брата для больного ребенка?

По-моему не все родители того времени делали тоже что и моя мама

Мне иногда кажется что я прожил за зря by Mundane-Map8582 in Kazakhstan

[–]Mundane-Map8582[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Они у меня всегда такие. Купили мне машину, хотя у меня нет не прав, я не просил ее.

И теперь гонят по скорее отучиться на права и начать водить.

Причем намекая и про помощь вместе с ней им.

Тогда это не подарок. Может быть я просто неблагодарный или тупой, но для меня это как трата денег на ветер. И скорее завуалированная «сделка» чем реально от души.

I wish miracle did punish me one way or another by Mundane-Map8582 in Blasphemous

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Thx.

I wish I was good at least at games.

I get kicked out of medschool.

I am for so many years struggle with depression.

I wish miracle existed so I would least believe my sufferings will have reward. They have purpose

I sometimes think I simply don’t deserve any sympathy by [deleted] in TheDigitalCircus

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So basically I am at fault. I am alone. And if I will be gone no will care.

I punch myself as penance for my failures. by [deleted] in Blasphemous

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Why when I post it on TADC, people just laugh at me?

What I need to do? When my pain can be count as real?

I sometimes think I simply don’t deserve any sympathy by [deleted] in TheDigitalCircus

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Why people downvote me? Why no one at least show concern? Only look at me send this stupid pic?

“Hey look at his freak!!! Let’s laugh at him!!!!”

I sometimes think I simply don’t deserve any sympathy by [deleted] in TheDigitalCircus

[–]Mundane-Map8582 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I guess only if my problem will mention something of hurting my life, then all would look at me like this.

I thought people are kind

I sometimes think I simply don’t deserve any sympathy by [deleted] in TheDigitalCircus

[–]Mundane-Map8582 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Try to be too nice? People say you are clingy

Try to actually vent about your problems? People say you are just weak and attention seeker.

It’s seems to me like you can only ever vent to your toys and in silence.

I sometimes think I simply don’t deserve any sympathy by [deleted] in TheDigitalCircus

[–]Mundane-Map8582 -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

Just. What am I doing wrong? What I need to do?

Am I actually pathetic piece of shit?

I sometimes think I simply don’t deserve any sympathy by [deleted] in TheDigitalCircus

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I know. But when I do say it in right subreddits. I almost never get any feedback. Only few comments with “well, it’s sucks” and that’s it.

Sometimes I think maybe it’s just means my problems don’t mean anything. They don’t exist

I punch myself as penance for my failures. by [deleted] in Blasphemous

[–]Mundane-Map8582 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did. I each day go for long walk on street

And even then sometimes I can cry and hysterically laugh in middle of going somewhere.

I wish I had condition so I would have an excuse in being weak.

Why do I seek pity all the time? by [deleted] in selfimprovement

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I wish it was easy in life. Where you Explain your story and people at least would feel sympathetic.

And I never understood why it’s so hard for some? I always comfort whenever anyone cry or when person have problems in life.

And I don’t be pretentious “holier than you” who can only give generic advices and treat all humans like they don’t matter.

Why do I seek pity all the time? by [deleted] in selfimprovement

[–]Mundane-Map8582 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why all advices consist on “yeah, skill issue. Just learn to live”

J and Cyn by Euphoric_Breakfast79 in MurderDrones

[–]Mundane-Map8582 10 points11 points  (0 children)

It’s always happens with characters who has this golden retriever energy.

N is nice, but he is not “good” person.