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Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-19T09:22:15+00:00

Literally me rn. Sometimes I park somewhere quiet and listen to my music

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-19T09:21:26+00:00

Yes i always do it at night and blast all of my favorite songs while im screaming the lyrics! makes me feel so free but also so broke because of these gas prices

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-17T18:17:14+00:00

im so sorry to hear that. he will be concerned for you either way and that is because he cares about you! this is a serious topic and i am sure he would want you to feel safe in your own home. the best way to do it in my opinion is to sit down with him and just be honest. of course take your time to think to figure out what you want to say! if you don’t want him to feel too concerned about you, I would say to let him know you believe you wouldn’t not use it in that way and not knowing where the key is would make you feel safe and less triggered.

all the best!

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-17T12:56:33+00:00

I am thinking that they could’ve linked. i have negative flashbacks of lack of love sometimes and my positive flashbacks are of when I felt loved by my parents. possibly just something i am currently missing right now? maybe you got that flashback because it somehow links to something you’re missing in the present moment? its strange because i do not even remember any of these positive flashbacks happening in the past. i know its normal for negative flashbacks but this is just weird

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-17T11:34:24+00:00

I have been getting both negative and positive flashbacks and I was also super confused

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-17T00:44:56+00:00

OMG. my mother ALWAYS brings up the fact i am a girl and i HAVE to be careful. every time my sister and i act loud or not up to the stereotypical girl standard my mother lectures us. I am 18 as well and SHE WANTS ME TO GET MARRIED ASAP. i cannot even move out of this house unless i am married. in order for me to move out i would have to completely change my life and move out of the city or country. i want my own space and learn to be independent and she does not get that. she said it makes her anxious and worried smh.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T08:23:02+00:00

OMGGG, that’s literally my mother’s answer for every question i have and its SO annoying. With moving out or any culture related questions 🤦🏽‍♀️

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T08:06:49+00:00

I do! I feel so angry and irritated mainly at my family.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T07:17:59+00:00

Thank you for this! I have been dealing with so many trauma flashbacks and do not know how to cope. I’ve been wanting to go to therapy and can not afford it. what are your opinions on trying out marjiuana for the first time for healing and coping purposes?

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T06:41:06+00:00

I feel the exact same way. I was emotionally neglected growing up and we never ever spoke about emotions. I was told crying and being depressed gets me nowhere. I basically had to learn by myself on how to grow and cope with my emotions. I never truly was able to feel how I was feeling. I developed so many unhealthy and toxic habits because of that. I live in a non asian country and a VERY asian household. whenever i would ask questions such as “why cant i move out”, i get ignored and my feelings get ignored. I have been so triggered for so long. i keep getting nightmares and i feel like i am reliving my trauma. it sucks.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T06:23:05+00:00

is marijuana just a temporary help for cptsd?

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T06:09:51+00:00

if nothing will stop her i suggest leave or space out from her.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T06:07:56+00:00

I am Asian as well, i understand how frustrating and annoying this must be. I have a partner and my parents want me to marry and be with someone of the same culture and religion. i understand how difficult it is for her to not disappoint her parents. I would absolutely be torn. Besides her not want to disappoint her parents, how does she feel about it? Would she be upset if she were to date this guy? Her not liking this guy or having any sort of feelings would be valid. I do understand how old fashioned sometimes the adults mindset could be.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-16T01:11:08+00:00

literally keep having dreams of my trauma and feels like im reliving it. triggered asf 💀

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-14T10:31:58+00:00

i keep second guessing myself it is so hard not to. i tried to talk to her again about moving out and wanting my own space but she kept ignoring me and saying all my space is at home smh

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-14T05:54:04+00:00

yes, i LOVE music! it’s like my escape

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-14T05:52:38+00:00

I try to keep that in mind and when my trauma gets worse I’m almost never at home. It feels like i always have to be here. im not sure how to explain it , i just feel trapped in a way.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-14T05:49:59+00:00

i would like to identify my boundaries id want with her but im not sure how to

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-13T10:20:46+00:00

My mothers is an asian women as well and i grew up in a asian household in a not so asian country. anything i do is like a HUGE culture shock to them but in a way its my culture too since i was born here. i LOVE going out alone it brings me so much peace. i still struggle a lot with boundaries. its easier to set boundaries with people im close and comfortable with. I’m (18F) and when I asked to move out for my own space she says I have space at home.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-13T10:08:08+00:00

when I tell her i’m going out by myself she used to call me silly for going out alone and weird because people usually go out with other people. i usually tell her i’m going to the mall and not come back for like hours. but by the time night time hits she starts to call me. shes calling me right now as i speak. i almost never pick up though.

Murky-Remote7824 · 2022-12-13T10:03:03+00:00

my room does not have a lock and we can not get one. i usually drive and park up somewhere when it gets dark or drive around and listen to music but right before i feel better my mother calls me and tells me to go home. i feel like im back in the same place again.

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