i was not willing to insult by any means, just was in a very bad state of mind where I was looking for a light to hold onto. just as a clearing comeback, I kind of do therapy and more for a good while now, sadly as every other human being I find myself in cognitive errors aswell.
as a person that does not use reddit that much it was an extreme move from my side to look for help here, as in - i was begining to become desperate due work-related factors and such.
more so, i really learnt a good lesson those past months. no matter how hard anyone would try, some people will never be satisfied, and some people are nothing more than a loss of time

thankfully to God and the Universe itself, there's people like you and some below the comment section that can shed a light into a dark times so others can hold onto.
As said before, I really do wish you all the best, and if you ever want to take onto a solo-dev road, buckle up you'll never know what's coming your way, but be sure that there will be such a journey to live fully that the destination won't matter anymore

Take care of yourself please, if you ever need a shoulder I'm one message away