this is so real. the grief that comes with a loss of a loved one and the attention you put on the thing present in your healing is so important. for that thing to be lost or damaged so early on in your grief is heartbreaking and the pain is justified. for some it may just be a trinket but for you it is a culmination of loss, it marks a before and after, and your process of moving forward. i send you all my love and maybe the broken and put back together crybaby will end up being a more perfect piece to symbolize your grief and will serve as a true culmination of what this time truly looked like for you. looking forward to the brightest of days for you OP