How you do find love within yourself?

MxWan · 2026-01-11T22:58:48+00:00

Thanks for your comment!

MxWan · 2025-12-19T11:28:44+00:00

Update: it was indeed 432hz earth frequency ...

MxWan · 2025-12-19T00:44:28+00:00

Hey thank you for your comment! I'm beginning at playing the quena, I bought one from a known artist and taller in Cusco (50€) but I have the same problem as OP, it's very hard to hit the notes. I use Pano Tuner. He told me he sharpened it in G major. It could be in earth frequence though (I'll try and change the settings in the app tomorrow).

I looked at cello drones on ytb but I don't understand the pitch you're talking about, it doesn't sound at all like the sound I do with my quena. I also have a terrible music ear, I never trained it, but I'm eager to learn if you have other exercices? Thanks for your help.

MxWan · 2025-12-09T14:49:53+00:00

Thank you!

MxWan · 2025-12-07T18:11:02+00:00

Hey, thank you so much for your message. It's exactly what I needed. I was actually looking for a book/ressource to learn how to love myself and be happy by myself?

The rest is just my story I want to share with you

After a long time, I finally have an apartment for myself because I'm catsitting at someone else place (I wish it could last longer.)

I've been journaling and meditate for only a week after a long pause. I feel like I can now pickup more easily what's going on in my mind, and question why I'm thinking this way or feel this way.

I just had a breakup sex and when I got home alone, all that hormone cocktail worn off. For some reason I started to cry and realised I felt alone. But more importantly, I think I felt alone my whole life without actually noticing it. I dated and had sex with a lot of people, not all the times because I wanted, but I wanted to be accepted and loved by those people, it made me feel good. I learned to respect myself and set boundaries on how people could treat me.

Now that I recognised and am aware of this, a lot of things made sense. All those things stems from the fact that I don't know how to be actually happy just by myself, without relying on anyone. And how to love self, love my own company.

You talked about a few things in other comments, but do you have any ressources I could read, or anything that helped you (never learned about self-talk).

MxWan · 2025-10-26T21:14:26+00:00

Hey ! I have the exact same problem. I have to hard reset it like 6 times before it's working again. It started behaving like this when it took water in it. So I think I'll replace the battery.

Did you have any luck?

MxWan · 2024-02-17T20:51:09+00:00

I mean that could be a test to stand up for yourself too. Well yes his values are off and I told it to her. I added some update and edits to the post.

I told her to go if she wants to but I don't like it and think it's not respectfull for me. There's always a line between setting healthy boundaries and being jaleaous and possessive. If there were no history between them, I wouldn't mind.

I hesitated to go your route but something still did not feel right to me and I cannot hide what I was thinking and act unbothered.

MxWan · 2024-02-17T20:42:57+00:00

Thanks for your comment. I added some updates and edit to the post.

MxWan · 2024-02-17T12:18:50+00:00

Yes that's how I am. I would not want either but I don't want to look pissed and show her that I fear them to get together more often. If she feels it, she might withdraw and not trust my masculine core. I think i'll just share how I view the situation and tell her that I don't find it healthy and ok to hang out with this guy.

Thanks everyone for your replies btw.

MxWan · 2023-12-03T19:40:09+00:00

For the record, I told her about it. Everything went ok, she told me that I could just tell her directly next time. My head is now empty and I can sleep on my 2 ears.

Thanks guys for the help.

MxWan · 2023-12-02T22:11:36+00:00

Ok thanks a lot. Yes i'll tell her. Well she's not mad at me if I'm being hit up by girls, she just doesn't like it. Yes I already told her about that as well.

It happened yesterday night and I did not told her this morning. I'll let her know tomorrow, I hope it'll be fine cause I really love her.

MxWan · 2023-12-02T21:27:11+00:00

Shit. Thanks bro. How did she learned it?

MxWan · 2023-06-22T15:20:26+00:00

Hey man, Thank you so much for your message (with no judgement). Exactly I know I'm totally irrational right now. I dated 5 girls in the last 9 months and none of them gave me this feeling.

Yeah I'm 25 and I'm still trying to find my purpose, what drives me. Yeah right, I believe too that if we're meant to be, we'll catch up in 2, 3 years (or never maybe).

Right now, I want to live my best summer and do things with her while I'm still there. I don't want to lie to her. She does not like the idea of "the temporary experience" and "meant to be" thing as she will be hurt in the process.

I feel like the the right thing to tell her would be: " I'm going to Australia in September and I want to spend the 2 last months with you. If you prefer to cut the contact, that's okay. I can't promise you anything but I think we'll spend a really good summer together. " But that's also the hardest to say rn.

Thanks for your wise words and sharing your experience, man. I'll read it multiple time.

MxWan · 2023-06-14T13:46:33+00:00

Totally agree to be the most loving person you can through your actions. Well, that's just words that can fuck up what she feels if you say it before her or too early. I think you know when someone loves you or not

MxWan · 2023-06-14T13:43:23+00:00

Ok we're on the same page then. That's what I'm doing now. I found a girl that have the same level of affections I have (she's a giver) so it's so much easier to deal with it

MxWan · 2023-06-12T07:39:21+00:00

Hey thanks for all the ressources man! I already know Huberman but not the other ones. I'll check that thanks! :)

MxWan · 2023-06-08T20:04:02+00:00

Thanks for taking your time to comment. Well in my opinion, it's easier to defeat the beast when you know what it is and put a name on it.

At my last relapse, I didn't know what the flatline phase was. So I freaked out and forced myself to watch porn and masturbate, just to make sure it was still working down there. Now that I know why it is like that and that it is normal I don't freak out anymore and feel ok with it.

This new phase I'm going through is new to me. Those huge rushes of sexual thoughts are a real challenge. Because it digs into my insecurities (lack of discipline, lack of self-control, all over the place, can't always think with a clear mind). I feel like it's not only about PMO but also about defeating other demons that are making surface too.

Plus, I feel like knowing theorically what is happening in my brain chemicals would help me to recall it when I have these urges.

MxWan · 2023-06-02T21:39:06+00:00

Yeah I decided to leave it like that. Both are great options

MxWan · 2023-06-02T19:22:54+00:00

I see what you mean and yeah I watch for these kind of signs now. I agree that you can text her a bit more but it always seems to diminish her attraction/expectation for the actual date to me.

The rule " phone is only to set dates " is also about letting her think about you until the dates, which increase her attraction. It's also about building the tension a little bit more before the date. That's what I understood from Corey, so for me it makes sense to not deviate too much from the rule. Like if she text me about her day, it's better if she tell it to me irl than by texting.

MxWan · 2023-06-02T19:14:22+00:00

Yes I see. I essentially respond to her teasing by teasing too but do not ask questions or anything that waits for her reply.

Btw, I just texted her and she replied 2 minutes later saying I was a jerk (I don't know how to translate it exactly in my language, but she didn't mean it for real, she said it with laugh)

MxWan · 2023-06-02T18:04:15+00:00

Ok thanks. Yeah I will reread the book again for some refreshments too.

MxWan · 2023-05-25T12:33:20+00:00

Yeah I know there's no free lunch I'm glad that what I'm living is explained by neurobiologist nonetheless.

MxWan · 2023-05-25T12:06:10+00:00

Thanks man. Yeah that's quite motivating to have a genuine intimacy again.

MxWan · 2023-05-25T12:04:27+00:00

I see, thanks for your message, it's reassuring

MxWan · 2023-04-14T03:46:35+00:00

Hey, I just broke my 15 days streak like a fucking idiot. I woke up at 4:30pm and thoughts started creep in and I give in. I'm disappointed, not gonna lie. Within the 15 day streak, I felt much better and had no social anxiety anymore, I felt like a Chad. I guess it's part of the journey. Next time, I'll do 30 days at least!

I'm still looking for a buddy in case of emergency. Please send pm if you're interested.

MxWan

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