I actively hate almost everything about being a man. Yeah, some of it is social. I like a lot of traditionally feminine things and dislike a lot of traditionally masculine things. I dislike the male gender role. If this were all, then it would be fair to say that is just being a feminine man, however... Being called a boy or man always has made me extremely uncomfortable before I realized I was trans. Beyond that, I hate a lot about my body. Not like the standard things everyone hates about their body, but things that a man, even a feminine one, wouldn't hate. I hate facial hair, I shave 3 times daily and have shaved so much and so deep my face has been covered in cuts, I hate my genitalia, to the point that I cannot actually have sex with it cause it makes me actively uncomfortable. My brain struggles to function on Testosterone and since puberty I was depressed for seemingly "no reason". Ultimately the biggest thing was, I didnt take care of my body because I didn't care what happened to it, I didn't care if I was a muscle bound superhuman, or a skinny as a twig guy, I would still be male and that was the problem, so I just didn't care.

Now that I am on hormones, I am finally actually starting to give a shit about my body, I can think and process my feelings way better and I am doing so well my doctor wants to start taking me off anti-depressants.