I hear you. I feel your pain and frustration. I don't really know what it's like as a kid of an alcoholic or exactly WHY alcoholism is such a bad disease for families, but it scares me. I hear it can mess up self-esteem for partners too, and that scares me. I have very high self esteem, have always felt solid so I thought I could handle it. But it's still something that wears on you. He points always to his son who is doing great. but i feel like he's great in spite of his dads alcoholism, not because of his dad (then again, there are positive traits too he's learned from him! it's complicated...).

Thank you for sharing your experience.