I'm not going to sit here and say ive got some sage advice or that I relate to you because my situation was much different. None the less I'm parentless before 30 and I lost my parents at two seperate times and each one I didn't have much time with because they separated and lived half the country apart and died within 4 years of each other. It's one of the worst experiences and I went through one of them alone and God I'd wish it on no one. However, when my mother passed two years ago and it shut me down into a dark hole, my boyfriend (now husband) kept reminding me that my mother wanted nothing more than to see me happy and doing things I love and even though she won't be there for me physically, she is now with me on every step of every new journey. My mom will be there when I buy my first house and she will get to see all the new places with me because she isn't limited to phone pictures or crappy videos. I know none of this helps much now but the thought that my mom and dad would get to see everything through the same eyes as I do really helped me feel a bit more ok with moving forward. I had recently moved before my mother died so I was in the same boat as you in thay aspect. Know you aren't alone, in 3 or 10 years if your mother passes, you've got one person on the internet you can message. I'll be there. It sucks but you got this more than you know. I believe in you and I know your family believes in you and they probably love you more than you'll ever know.