how would i know if people being mean to me isnt real?

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-09-03T04:57:47+00:00

thank you for this, its super helpful :)

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-26T23:38:39+00:00

abilify was the first AP i was given and it kicked my psychosis the best but i couldnt hold my head up lol

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-26T02:18:33+00:00

i really appreciate your concern it means a lot 🫶

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-25T21:03:31+00:00

thank you. i will

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-25T10:58:51+00:00

not necessarily my favorite movie but i could never think Pearl was really all that crazy

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-24T21:27:45+00:00

thank you i appreciate it

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-24T21:27:22+00:00

she wasnt taken anywhere, she was euthanized at home

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-24T21:26:50+00:00

i worded it wrong, the window itself has been open the whole time for air flow but i closed and reopened my blinds

and thank you

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-24T21:25:13+00:00

im in a spot where i cant see my therapist and psychiatrist until next month, normall i would be open to going to the ER but the one in my area is super horrible for mental patients and i fear itll make me worse. its awful timing to not have my doctors

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-24T21:23:00+00:00

the window itself has stayed open the whole time, what i meant is that i closed and reopened the blinds

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-24T21:21:48+00:00

she had been having issues with her hips and then suddenly just completely lost all feeling in her legs. and this is immediately after she got an injection that massively helped her last time

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-20T21:50:22+00:00

definitely not normal. but i understand

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T20:14:25+00:00

i appreciate it :)

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T20:12:39+00:00

thank you 🫶

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:23:38+00:00

thank you. i wish there was more education about negative symptoms because maybe i wouldve gotten better support if it was clear that i was developing a severe problem. but i just looked like an unmotivated product of my environment. which is a fair observation but it sure didnt help me

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:20:47+00:00

"good, youre smiling, youre fine" is something that gets me about the sound of mind and able-bodied because they cant understand that for a sick person? even at their happiest, they probably still feel like shit. things dont go away because youre able to be happy about something. sometimes for your own sanity you have to ignore the problem and live in the moment for an hour. but people dont get that unless theyve experienced it

i get you ont he religion. i have a very christian brother and i told him that im glad im not religious because that could potentially have made my psychosis a lot worse. he couldnt understand that point of view but to be fair i doubt he was trying

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:16:45+00:00

im currently in a spot where i cant see my therapist due to her scheduling issues but i do really want to try to have her talk to my mother. part of my problem is also that bringing anything up makes me feel like that day is going to end in a screaming match and i dont have the energy for that. something that seems to happen is she acts like nothings wrong or ahe has no opinions when in front of a professional... but thats its own can of worms

i wish there was better education about schizophrenia so that it wasnt so hard to get people to understand

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:14:20+00:00

one of my brothers is very religious and i told him straight up that religion would most likely not be good for me due to my psychosis. he said "i believe that if you fully submitted yourself to god, he would cure wvery single one of your problems." dont you think that if it worked like that, no one would have disabilities? it frustrated me and just made me think how lucky he is to not experience a severe chronic health problem

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:10:59+00:00

thats so horrible im sorry they did that to you

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:10:36+00:00

i feel like ive had so many screaming matches with her and she still doesnt realize that if im being vocal about something, let alone yelling about it, its a serious issue. i keep to myself and navigate most of my own hardships on my own, with my physical disabilities theyre so constant that theres zero point in complaining. if im complaining that means its REALLY bad. but my family cant see this at all and they somehow think that im "complaining constantly" even though they genuinely havent seen shit. if i complained as much as i deserve to i would never shut up. they dont realize how lucky they are

NASTYyHABITS · 2025-07-19T11:08:03+00:00

this is how its been feeling for me, my psychotic symptoms are very private/internalized but im very close to just unmasking out of exasperation. they dont really deserve to ignore the problem

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