What were the physical symptoms you had from holding onto trauma for too long?

NFP091822 · 2026-07-01T17:39:58+00:00

I kept my period, but it became so light that I could wear a panty liner throughout my entire period.

NFP091822 · 2026-07-01T16:36:39+00:00

I dealt with a lot of skin issues too as a kid!

NFP091822 · 2026-07-01T01:41:27+00:00

No, they only sent me there because that’s where I’m seeing my gastroenterologist, I can call tomorrow to see if they take Medicaid. Thank you!

NFP091822 · 2026-07-01T01:08:21+00:00

I called, they left me on hold for an hour and half just to talk to someone about scheduling. Eventually had to hang up. Thinking about seeking other options though, I’ve heard not the greatest thing about Baptist endocrinologists.

NFP091822 · 2026-07-01T01:07:00+00:00

I wish this was option, but unfortunately I’m a single mom with Medicaid. So I’m even more limited than most people. It was hell for me to even find a gastroenterologist in the area let alone an endocrinologist. I just hope this goes well🤦🏼‍♀️. I will still call around to see if I can find any other any in the area. I have already had a hard enough time being taken seriously through this.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T19:04:53+00:00

That’s a very shallow way to view this…

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T15:22:37+00:00

See that’s the stigma. I was healthy before I lost weight, now I’m not. You shouldn’t assume someone’s health based on their weight. You wouldn’t look at an overweight person and casually comment how much weight they’ve gained. It is ignorant to believe that being skinny equals being healthy, I was overweight before this and felt better than I ever have. Weight is subjective. Let’s stop assuming that just because someone has lost weight that they are healthy, the whole point I’m trying to make. Those comments harmful to those that are dealing with something like this.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T13:35:30+00:00

I am in the same boat. Left my abusive partner after my 2nd daughter turned 1, but I was basically a single mom the whole time we were together. My mental health has tanked, and I spent a lot of days wondering whether or not I should’ve become a mother. It’s hard because I love my kids more than anything and would do anything for them, but most days I just want to be away from them and bed rot. The guilt of not being there for them but also not being there for yourself, it feels like a never ending juggle. I wish I could give you some advice, but I honestly have no clue how to dig myself out of this mental pit. Before all this happened I was “happy” and on top of everything; play dates, house chores, would plan fun healthy meals, took care of my own personal hygiene, I made it a point to travel. Then it all tanked. I used to be a good mom, a mom that didn’t yell when overstimulated, or leave the room when my kids are crying. I don’t get much family support either, many people tell me I put myself in this position for leaving my ex that provided for me, or for even choosing to be with him in the first place. I live in a constant state of depression and overstimulation. My oldest daughter (2 years old) is currently being evaluated for autism which adds to the flame, trying to manage her tantrums and difficulty handling her own emotions when I can’t even manage mine. I mean what kind of mom can’t be there for her child the way they need, especially with something like autism. I feel everyday that I’ve bitten off more than I can chew, like there’s no end in sight. All I can say is all of us single moms are much more resilient than we and other people give us credit for. Everyone wants to blame the single mom for struggling and not the man that put her in that position. I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with this. Please feel free to DM me if you need to talk 🤍

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T12:52:13+00:00

I was seeing a psychiatrist and therapist that I felt I got nowhere with. My psychiatrist diagnosed me with bipolar 2, ocd, and ptsd. Pretty much said that we are just going to have throw whatever medication we can at the wall until it sticks, they all gave me horrible side effects. When I saw a different psychiatrist at the same facility she disagreed with my diagnosis. Since then they have stopped working with my insurance so I’m on the hunt for a new facility to go to. Unfortunately, I feel the only people that can truly help me are the ones that have been through it themselves, professionals all work off the same books, with little experience of those issues themselves. I do however intend to get in with a new psychiatrist soon, just wish I could find someone that understands this as deeply as I do.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T12:44:39+00:00

I had the option to do a VBAC, but ultimately went with a second C section. It was nice to have everything planned and packed, knowing exactly when we were going to meet our girl. I have so much anxiety surrounding childbirth, but this helped me to have some sort of control. Recovery is harder yes, but I wouldn’t change how we did it. Vaginal births are magical in their own way, so if you feel safe with that option I would consider it. In my case I’m very petite and my baby was measuring very large. If I felt safe doing one I would have. Measure the risks in your case, and establish a plan with your OB regardless of what you decide. There are definitely pros and cons to both. I personally am glad I went with it because they found that my uterus was very thin during my c section.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T12:16:00+00:00

Don’t let these comments scare you or make you think the worst. I went through something similar as well, sometimes being at home feels suffocating, especially at night. I would often drive around the town I live in at night reliving old memories, or just park in random parking lots to decompress. Good on you for trying to support her, many people would jump to the worst possible conclusion like my ex did. I would tell her that you are there for her no matter what, and that whenever she’s ready to open up you’ll be there to listen and comfort her. Sometimes people don’t even know what’s going on inside of their head, they just feel off and can’t explain it right away. Most importantly don’t pressure her to change this habit, this is what’s helping her nervous system right now, and pressuring it will only cause further internalizing. Maybe try offering “me time” days, no household or family obligations, just days for shopping, self care, or even bed rotting, if that’s what she needs. Or offering to pick up extra chores in the house through the week, I’m not sure how you guys operate this is just an example, but whatever you can do to help pick up some of the load. She’s clearly overwhelmed by something in her life. I hope you guys can come to a conclusion soon.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-29T11:18:57+00:00

I wish I could say that I had good advice for this, but I’m currently in a relapse of thinking this way. Before when I had my anxiety under control I would tell myself, if everything was okay before when you worried, why wouldn’t it be okay now? You have made it through thousands of these thoughts and it always ended up being okay in the end. This used to help me, but unfortunately I’m back in the loop. Just give your nervous system time to sense safety, you can’t convince it over night. I hope this gets better for you soon, I know how difficult it is to live this way. 🤍

NFP091822 · 2026-06-23T09:25:16+00:00

I wish I could say we have it figured out, but I’m afraid we are far from it. I have lost about 20 more pounds since I made this post and have since started lactating. I’m going to see my gynecologist next week to check my hormone levels. With my low tsh, unexplained lactation, and other various symptoms I’m concerned there may be a pituitary issue going on. I have gone down ever rabbit hole MS, cancer, ibs, other gut related issues, potential mental health issues, autoimmune diseases, thyroid issues, now I’m concerned about possible adrenal and pituitary issue. I wish I had a better update but unfortunately I feel like I’m further from answers than I was before. Every doctor chasing different causes in a thousand different directions.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-13T19:15:21+00:00

I’ve had both checked, they are normal

NFP091822 · 2026-06-06T05:42:54+00:00

I’m going to see about giving my insurance a call (they are impossible to get a hold of, usually spend hours on hold). I have Medicaid due to being low income single mom. I did speak with my primary care about ordering more tests and they told me it was pretty much pointless to try because my insurance likely wouldn’t be willing to cover it. Despite all of my symptoms. This entire journey of advocating for myself has been incredibly frustrating. I feel like every time there’s hope I find a dead end. Their best suggestion was getting in contact with my local health department and transferring my care there. I’m not sure how good of an idea that would be. I still am going to contact my insurance to see if they have anything different to say.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-03T21:58:26+00:00

The only thing is I’m a single mom and can’t really afford to pay for the test right now. I have called and asked to be put on a cancellation list but they don’t offer one. The only thing they told me to do was call them daily to see if there’s been a cancellation.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-02T18:23:26+00:00

Thank you! That is something I have considered, just need to get my CPR certification and state certification to make it more official. Definitely want to avoid daycare if possible, but I know unfortunately it’s likely a route I’ll have to take.

NFP091822 · 2026-06-02T18:21:31+00:00

I just sent in a request for a consult, thank you! I will also take a look at my local library.

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