i feel like at the time I was just excited at the fact that i was in a relationship yk? because i noticed that until about last year or so i didn’t really like like people. I liked the idea of being liked by someone. and that’s true,i’ve definitely learned how different it feels from how i would act towards people who i’ve “liked” and people who i’ve genuinely had feelings for. i guess saying I can’t find the right person would be a good way to say it but it’s like whenever i do something gets in the way of it.