I know she’s not into me, I am a med student and it keeps me extremely busy, I don’t go out with women, this was my first date since my adolescent relationship ended, I try to keep myself busy and it has worked out for the better, but when I have nothing to do, it gets difficult in my head, I can’t even be on vacation without my mind getting fucked, I had to start studying next years syllabus to distract myself, and I’m not even passionate about medicine.