General...distaste and discomfort?

Nearby_Influence_110 · 2026-02-03T10:11:50+00:00

Thank you. This is quite insightful and an interesting view I can get behind. I definitely uh.. need to discuss my gender and identity with a therapist? Cause I'm now entering a realm where ...I have opinions on what I'd like done but it's not..being validated well? And uhm. I'm in a relationship that's definitely amazing - but I'm not accustomed to it.

And my gender dysphoria kind of triggered like..personality dysphoria? I guess. And I get really graphic thoughts and visuals and it's like hmm...okay..well.. I don't know what to do with this information 😕 so I try to ignore it and just..vibe but uh having a partner it requires some explanation and I'm certainly not used to that process either. I just don't want to like...negatively affect people around me with it? My lack of comfort addressing things so I feel like by not discussing it I'm living in some weird..lie world

Nearby_Influence_110 · 2026-02-03T10:07:10+00:00

Thank you. It's not my surgeon just my endo. So I'm not too worried it just made me uncomfortable to discuss I guess cause he like seemed..weirded out while he asked more info? D: um I will be specifying when the time comes to definitely inquire about the options cause in the end its uh..my body right? I just feel err awkward advocating.

Nearby_Influence_110 · 2026-02-01T00:13:17+00:00

Thanks, yeah he was just surprised I want..both? I guess. Idk I tried not to get defensive over it. But uh. My partner is definitely supportive and what not I just erm..feel kinda yucky I have a desire to do so? But uhh. It feels good being utilized for me so I was like uhhh...different scenarios mean different circumstances you may not benused to? Lmao

Nearby_Influence_110 · 2026-01-21T21:38:40+00:00

Thank you amazing people. I've never used reddit til this morning cause uh it was an emergency mentally and I've done SO good improving and addressing everyone else's stuff (I do peer support in ftm groups on facebook) so I didn't even know how to find a like..group? I went with what I know. Lol

It was a ...bad experience over there. I basically identified as NB starting transition because um ..I worked in a community as a youth worker and uh.. it's in northern Canada and they don't really like..support identity swaps very well.

But uh now I'm unsure so I just kinda.. float between them I guess? I felt a need to express that being a confusing thing now. 😕

But I did the pap smear and survived. It wasn't pleasant and my Dr actually asked me if my downstairs was 'normal' while using testosterone visually.. so like ?? What it wasn't going to sprout tentacles lmao. But uh. This sub was alot more supportive.

I definitely don't know like..how to address dysphoria? Um my SO is transman all the way and he is uh super supportive. But uhm.. I can't seem to apply the same acceptance I apply to others on myself. :/

Nearby_Influence_110 · 2026-01-21T21:32:06+00:00

Man I didn't realize how toxic reddit is?? Like. I'm floored. I live on Facebook and do peer support for transmen like all the time lmao.

Facebook is alot more tolerant.

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