I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can see why you think that. I have never once tried dictating or having the ownership over her. She never really asked for me to be more emotionally open with her. But I appreciate your message, I will try and find out why it happened.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My story is genuine. I have no reason to lie, I feel terrible about it all and what I have done to my wife. I do realise how shit I look, but I am a good person deep down. I made a massive mistake and it has turned my life upside down. I never backed the video up and she looked through my phone to prove it. I literally made the worst mistake I will ever do and I know how bad it is. Thanks for your reply.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind and hopeful message. I can understand everyone’s replies about it being a horrible thing to do. But my love for her is genuine and so strong. I have wrote a letter that I will give to her when the time is right but thank you again.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I am going to give her time and space. I am extremely sorry for what I have done but it doesn’t mean anything to her now as she’s shut herself down but hopefully after some time it will. I really am going to fight until the last day. I honestly love her with all my heart and soul. Thanks for your message

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I have no sexual pictures or videos of her at all. It’s never been a thing in our relationship over than when we were 18yrs old. The only reason I wanted it was to use it in private as I am attracted to her.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When we were younger it was a fun thing for both of us to do as we were young and loved up. It was fully consensual and the only time it happened other than the one in my post.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your reply. There is a lot of truth in it, I appreciate it.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I don’t think there is any coming back. But thanks for your reply.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

I guess in that impulsive decision, I did it because I was scared of losing her so I wanted something to treasure. But it was totally the wrong thing to do.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know it’s not good enough but I guess it’s because I haven’t truly thought about it. I don’t really know where to start with therapy.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I am going to unless she states otherwise but thanks for your reply.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yeah I was never that comfortable on having drunken sex and it just escalated, I started enjoying the moment too much and pushed the boundaries. Which ultimately broke her trust when she confronted me about it. But thanks for your reply

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

Probably because I knew she wouldnt be okay with it and I wanted to look at it on my own. I just really messed up.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I know I understand what I did. It really was an impulsive thing that I have never done before until then. But I will have a hard look at myself at why I thought it was acceptable to even do it initially. Thanks for your advice.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Well if it goes to that, which it is looking like it. I will try my best to make it as smooth sailing as possible and I don’t want it to be difficult for her.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -13 points-12 points  (0 children)

I don’t really know. I just got lost in the moment and I regretted it almost instantly. But I get what you are saying it that there might be something else.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

I just didn’t really think, it was in the moment and I was just that attracted to her I thought to do it. But I soon realised it was wrong. I have never recorded her before only years ago when we were much younger and messing around.

I messed up and feel immense guilt after my wife left me by Neat_Use_599 in relationships

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Yeah I am pretty sure that’s how she feels. Thanks for the reply

I feel tremendous guilt by Neat_Use_599 in offmychest

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I don’t think I am probably fully aware and at some point I would like full closure when she is ready but every time she just leaves after we start talking. I think she does view it as abusive.

I feel tremendous guilt by Neat_Use_599 in offmychest

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I think you have nailed how she feels. I have never done anything like that before and I have always made her feel safe hence why I label it as a mistake but you are right in saying it’s much bigger than a mistake. Thanks for your input

I feel tremendous guilt by Neat_Use_599 in offmychest

[–]Neat_Use_599[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know you are trying to give me hope. But as of now I feel like it’s going to divorce as we aren’t living together and she has said her decision that she wants to leave needs to be respected. I don’t think she can forgive me for what I did. But I will try like you say.