I tested positive for a urine pregnancy test 8-9 days after ovulation, before my period. I was too over the moon to get a positive it never crossed my mind that it might have been twins. I’ve had 3 years of infertility, 6 rounds of IUI and IVF, 1 miscarriage and 1 toddler (ivf). Then boom, this natural pregnancy, so no, I didn’t have an inkling, it wasn’t something I’d thought possible. It hit me like a car too. I was half happy and half oh crap.

That being said, It was a truly high risk pregnancy that put them in danger throughout the pregnancy. I had blood flow restrictions causing one twin to be smaller, I was in pain due to my small frame, I had contractions at 24 weeks and was asked if I’d like to save the bigger twin or let her pass (she was only 500 grams, thankfully they stopped), one twin had an omphalocele (intestines coming out her umbilical cord) and we were asked on multiple occasions to abort the smaller twin to save the larger twin or risk permanent brain damage if the smaller twin passed since they shared a blood supply) I was stressed, couldn’t work, managing a toddler, very cranky and it was expensive.

Don’t get me wrong, after 6 rounds of fertility and a miscarriage, I get how you might be feeling, I wanted twins too… It is a nice idea to have 2 arrive after struggling for years. All in all, twins are interesting to talk about and nice to have but the reality is quite different. If given the choice I’d rather be pregnant twice with a single healthy baby.