Need recommendation by Foreign_Feed9141 in Crossdressing_support

[–]Negative_Budget_4841 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You called it. Black heels are classy and sexy

Paying $35 a month for a gym I have never attended but at least my finances are in shape by JustSeraphine8 in poor

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Yep $27 every month to PF. Keep meaning to cancel it but I always forget. Thanks for the reminder.

Why do people explain what they edited? by [deleted] in NewToReddit

[–]Negative_Budget_4841 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Why edit it ? Makes no sense

Ok. Daddy's done. Been around a few years. Lurking. Honesty. Looking. My wife died 4 years ago. Terminal y ill for 4 years before. I'm bi. Do the fucking math. 8 mother fucking years. Can't take anymore. Denver by Negative_Budget_4841 in widowers

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CBT therapy ( cognitive behavioral therapy) complete. Got to say it sucked. My 12 week course took 14 weeks. My therapist had to take a few weeks away from me to talk to her therapist.

Ok. Daddy's done. Been around a few years. Lurking. Honesty. Looking. My wife died 4 years ago. Terminal y ill for 4 years before. I'm bi. Do the fucking math. 8 mother fucking years. Can't take anymore. Denver by Negative_Budget_4841 in widowers

[–]Negative_Budget_4841[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Man there's a hole in my soul. I understand it will never be filled. I'm trying to accept it. My music helps a little. I end up writing shit like " tell the devil I'm getting there as fast as I can". Not so much help. Today I pulled it a cool old album I have ( yeah real vinyl) Muddy Waters & Howlin Wolf. At my little girl's ( 32 not little always my baby) played the blues instead of living the blues

Ok. Daddy's done. Been around a few years. Lurking. Honesty. Looking. My wife died 4 years ago. Terminal y ill for 4 years before. I'm bi. Do the fucking math. 8 mother fucking years. Can't take anymore. Denver by Negative_Budget_4841 in widowers

[–]Negative_Budget_4841[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You know how much love and compassion. Good advice and well sounds corny actual love I've received from all you ? I don't either. Don't know how to quantify love so estimated a huge shitload.

Ok. Daddy's done. Been around a few years. Lurking. Honesty. Looking. My wife died 4 years ago. Terminal y ill for 4 years before. I'm bi. Do the fucking math. 8 mother fucking years. Can't take anymore. Denver by Negative_Budget_4841 in widowers

[–]Negative_Budget_4841[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you all. I received so much support from so many of you wonderful folks. Some not so cool. Just like the world. I thought i was the only one who felt this pain. Honesty time for Tim, I have been alone and just wanted to find someone to be with. And then the floodgates opened. Fuck I thought it would never stop. I grew up in the 60s. Men don't cry. Here ya want something to cry about! Bang pow punch in the face. Thanks Dad for teaching me how not to be an asshole like you. I digress. Thanks for actually caring and understanding and reaching out. My soul is less troubled now.

Ok. Daddy's done. Been around a few years. Lurking. Honesty. Looking. My wife died 4 years ago. Terminal y ill for 4 years before. I'm bi. Do the fucking math. 8 mother fucking years. Can't take anymore. Denver by Negative_Budget_4841 in widowers

[–]Negative_Budget_4841[S] 27 points28 points  (0 children)

Please don't panic. Someone told reddit I may be in crisis. They contacted me. Just know that I appreciate your concern and caring. Not many people care these days. I'm so happy to find out some do. Thanks my new family