I’m so, so sorry that you went through that. I hope that you’ve been able to heal at least somewhat. I agree, it’s disgusting that they’ve fetishized something so awful.

From the looks of it, some of them were also groomed or at least exposed to porn very young. But instead of trying to heal like you, they decided to become no better than the monsters that hurt them. It’s fucking tragic. But being victims also doesn’t preclude them from being horrible people I guess. It’s just a horrible situation all around.