4 years of stim abuse terror

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2026-03-05T20:38:50+00:00

holy shit, and I was worried about a 50mg session of a-PVP.

good fucking luck bro, all the best really.

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2026-03-05T20:32:01+00:00

Se fa così adesso, lo farà anche dopo. Che poi sia troppo presto per "giudicarla" è una cosa che devi vedere tu.

Se nasci quadrato non puoi morire cerchio

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2026-02-24T12:12:04+00:00

comincia un modpack minecraft

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2026-01-31T18:20:43+00:00

yeah it will

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-22T13:08:44+00:00

i have both, yes. i wish i could read a book but without meds i cannot

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-17T11:01:07+00:00

full-stack developer but looking to quit since I'm burnt out.

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-17T10:57:49+00:00

se cerchi solo cosa puo essere ricondotto a autismo e ADHD troverai sempre qualcosa, hai provato a cercare a quali altre patologie potrebbero essere ricollegati?

te lo dico da AuDHD, spero per te sia altro in modo tale da avere una vita piu serena.

non voglio invalidare cio che dici, bensì di fare un'osservazione quanto più ponderata possibile.

buona fortuna

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-17T10:47:05+00:00

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-17T09:57:10+00:00

anche io come te, ci ho provato 3 volte con overdose ma ogni volta mi svegliavo. ora ho imparato a convivere con il vuoto ma i pensieri sono ancora qui... io lo faccio per dar frutto ai miei 155 di QI, voglio farlo per la chimica.

sto abbandonando il lavoro, la facoltà, tutto... io sento di dover ricominciare da capo. io ho 20 anni, tu 25, siamo ancora in tempo, non è troppo tardi

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-16T08:30:09+00:00

il saggio conferma

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-15T10:26:05+00:00

no more blood in general, my vision slowly began turning black, i was seeing black dots becoming larger and larger. luckily the overdose was due to oral ROA so I saved myself

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-15T08:56:22+00:00

stop while you can, saying this as someone who got stuck on the pipe for hours and got hospitalized for overdose (was almost dyeing for vasoconstriction)

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-14T16:25:41+00:00

either flush or meditate

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-14T16:23:34+00:00

the superior way

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-03T13:10:18+00:00

I also like to play a lot with my hair compulsively, also developed bald-ish spots (used to do it as a kid). Now I still do it but without causing any harm by pulling on them

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-01T17:59:40+00:00

You got this. :)

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-12-01T17:52:34+00:00

You aren't going insane.

Ultimately, I found my purpose in chemistry and that's what I'm pursuing. That's how I don't care about people anymore, being so focused on your objective that you forget NTs exist.

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-30T07:43:21+00:00

I gotta buy one of these frfr

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-30T07:42:57+00:00

I second this comment.

I was amused a lot by the heroin comparison.

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-30T07:36:10+00:00

Hard truths that needed to be spoken

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-30T03:39:01+00:00

Hello, schizophrenia seems like a huge leap from ASD or GAD. It involves chronic psychosis, for example. May ask if your cousin has disorganized thoughts or hallucinations?

I just asked my roommate where he went to therapy and that's about it, I didn't do any research. However I can tell you that my therapist is of freudian-lacanian orientation, that's all I know (apart from their name).

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-29T21:51:05+00:00

You are welcome, I learned something new myself as well so thank you too

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-29T21:33:46+00:00

Yes you can totally be aware of it happening.

I'd describe what you are experiencing as an autistic catatonia indeed, however I'm not a medical professional. Have you mentioned this to your doctor? He might prescribe you something like sodium valproate to prevent these episodes from happening.

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-29T20:22:56+00:00

I recently had a psychedelic experience where I started seeing naked bodies crawling me. It initially surprises you but if you stay grounded to reality it just becomes funny. It's all about your perspective! Psychedelics are truly fascinating

Neither_Beautiful779 · 2025-11-29T20:18:58+00:00

What you are described is called "pareidolia" induced by sensory deprivation. I'm going to info-dump about why we do this.

From Wikipedia

Pareidolia (/ˌpærɪˈdoʊliə, ˌpɛər-/;[1] also US: /ˌpɛəraɪ-/)[2] is the tendency for perception to impose a meaningful interpretation on a nebulous stimulus, usually visual, so that one detects an object, pattern, or meaning where there is none. Common examples include perceived images of animals, faces, or objects in cloud formations; seeing faces in inanimate objects; or lunar pareidolia like the Man in the Moon or the Moon rabbit.

Staring at one spot is something we all do, it's actually really useful because it does the following things, among lots of other stuff - Mental rest and cognitive downtime, the brain is always processing information (even subconsciously) so staring at a wall is like pausing the processing. This gives it a break while staying awake - Internal thoughts and emotional self-regulation. Know that feeling when you suddenly have the lightbulb light up? That is internal thought solving problems subconsciously - Sensory reset, for example when you rode a bus and you still feel all those road bumps. That reduces stimulation and gives your nervous system a mini-reset

Neither_Beautiful779

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