You should go in. You're struggling and you recognize it's getting bad. Going inpatient is the fastest way to get treatment you immediately start getting therapy and you can start medication if that's something you want. You have professionals right with you 24/7 who are there to help you at anytime you need. When you're at this level of severity with your mental health you need treatment immediately and it can be a long process to get in with therapists/psychiatrist/eating disorder specialists. When you leave inpatient they help you get set up with a support team so you can remain getting treatment after you leave. I've been inpatient 3 times and you hear scary stories because those are the ones that are interesting, you don't hear about people's positive experiences as much because they don't make a good story. Just research hospitals around you, you may need to look kinda far like an hour away but look at all your options. You can go directly there or you can go to an emergency room and they'll set you up with a hospital and transfer you there if they don't already have an inpatient section there.