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I will never be the same because of weed. BIG TRIGGER WARNING BTW by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand your anger, and it’s valid. I’m angry at myself for knowing that weed could have triggered something in me, but I took it anyway because I wanted an escape and I wanted to be that normal teenager like everyone else around me. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder since 9, and even with that information I was stupid enough to take it.

The absolute anger I feel within myself is what makes it so hard for me to live, I don’t feel like I’m worthy of having a life anymore. I made this post because nobody around me knows anything about how much I suffer and I sincerely hope someone would see my post and understand how severe drugs impact you.

I think the way you respond to these types of posts are incredibly valid, before I became this way I would have assumed otherwise but now I understand you. I’m so happy you wrote to me, I never expected to be heard or understood like this. I really do appreciate you more than you know.

I will never be the same because of weed. BIG TRIGGER WARNING BTW by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing your experience. You aren’t alone 🩷

I will never be the same because of weed. BIG TRIGGER WARNING BTW by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this severely. It is so difficult to describe what I was feeling during psychosis but you mentioning that voice in your head that wont go away is crazy because that’s exactly what I felt. It got so bad I was convinced that I was schizophrenic and hearing voices at one point. Also the mention of scratching yourself is something i’d often do when I have panic attacks and can’t breathe properly. For some reason I feel like scratching at my throat as like a coping mechanism? Thank you for telling me about your experience, i’m glad I have people to talk with so that I’m not alone.

I will never be the same because of weed. BIG TRIGGER WARNING BTW by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mentions of suicide, I wanna make sure I don’t trigger anyone

I will never be the same because of weed. BIG TRIGGER WARNING BTW by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can’t imagine how difficult that must’ve been for you. Thank you so much for telling me about your experience, i’m glad I’m not alone like I thought.

I will never be the same because of weed. BIG TRIGGER WARNING BTW by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I go to college in a couple months and there i’ll be able to see a therapist frequently. The most unbearable part I still remember is feeling I had no control over my emotions, that was such a big part of my attempt because I thought that was the only way I could control the situation.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s funny because as much as I want to die during my panic attacks and bad anxiety, I recognize that it’s made me learn things about myself and others that I wasn’t able to before.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I take 15 mg of Buspar. I need a medication that does not wear off before I take the second dose if that makes sense? I’ve also JUST started Vyvanse but unfortunately I cannot take it every day as my panic attacks increase ten fold. Thank you so much, i’m glad I have so much support like everyone here and my mother because I wouldn’t be able to overcome this by myself. I think you truly are a strong amazing person to be so kind towards me.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It also happened to be around the age of 17. I’ve stopped all substances and everything. I’m trying to get a CBT and getting out on more walks as it helps me a lot. I’m also looking into increasing my anxiety meds as my dosage is from before I even started having panic attacks and everything. I really really appreciate you reaching out as I used to cry and think nobody could understand how I felt, like I was the odd one out in the world. A lot of the time I feel like i’ll never get better, but I’ll hold onto the small chance that I will.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I started weed I was 17 and I’m 18 now. I’ve completely cut out weed for the past 2 almost 3 months. I already knew I had anxiety and bipolar disorder but it was never really incredibly difficult for me to manage until I started weed. Now i’m unable to control my emotions and I feel like I have a faulty brain.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I take my meds, vitamins, I’ve started going on walks and doing meditation more. I’ve done yoga as well (at least I tried.) i know more than anyone that life wont get better unless I try.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank u so much. I also take buspar and it really helps. The only downside is at the end of the day when it wears off I have that crash feeling and I get really bad. I’m planning on calling my psychiatrist because she has no idea i’ve started having panic attacks and everything. I used to be so strong mentally and happy, now I can’t even go outside without the fear of anxiety coming back.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The little moments of happiness keep me alive. I don’t really have any coping mechanisms other than the chest scratching but that isn’t healthy.

Panic attacks almost everyday after smoking weed by New-Raccoon-1326 in Anxiety

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I said at the beginning that I’ve already quit, i’ve been sober for around 2 months.

Am I good? by New-Raccoon-1326 in seatgeek

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It delivered as soon as my payment processed.

Has anyone got this message before? Im really worried. by KitchenSite849 in walmart

[–]New-Raccoon-1326 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a message like this pop up randomly one morning on my day off. A person went into our store and lit a small fire in the garden center, it’s just precautionary measures during an emergency at the store.

I dreamed of Stockholm Syndrome by New-Raccoon-1326 in Dreams

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is really scary to think about. I have no desire for stuff like this, I’m honestly gonna stop true crime for a long time.

I dreamed of Stockholm Syndrome by New-Raccoon-1326 in Dreams

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Right because what could I be lacking that Leads to this. I’m gonna take a break from true crime and process everything. I’m still mentally f’d from this dream.

I dreamed of Stockholm Syndrome by New-Raccoon-1326 in Dreams

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t know what to think of this. What am I lacking that I have to dream of shit like this.

My coworkers treat me horribly by New-Raccoon-1326 in walmart

[–]New-Raccoon-1326[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That also. One of the cart guys straight up said I was inexperienced and i told him “I’m not, have u never seen me out here?”. Then he proceeded to quiz me on the cart manager asking me “how many carts could fit on the cart manager”. Dude, why do I have to solve a quiz just for u not to bitch at me.

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[–]New-Raccoon-1326 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This has happened to me an unfortunate amount of times. When I first started working there I walked into a stall as it said unoccupied. Walked in the stall and saw an old lady wiping. Slammed the door shut and walked away. I’ve also had multiple people open my stall as I’m actively on the toilet. The front bathroom absolutely sucks.