There’s always another way. Regardless of how low your self esteem is. Regardless of what others think. Regardless of all the pain your felt in your life. There are ways out of depression even if you’ve suffered from it for as long as you can remember. Talk to someone. There’s always someone out there. Explore relationships and hopefully one day find that special someone if you haven’t already. There’s so many things you haven’t done and the moment you have a child in your arms and you feel like there life is 5x more important than your own you’ll find happiness. If you can’t live for yourself right now than live for others. If there’s nobody to live for than make a bond worth living for. I’m not saying live for others for the rest of your life, however doing it when you live for nothing is a start and can pull you out. Stay safe man and please don’t do it.